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Hello and welcome to this week's twin flame energy report. I hope you have had a nice week so far. 

In this week's report I am using the Guilded Tarot by Ciro Marchetti for the Divine Masculine and Feminine's individual energies and the Rumi Oracle by Alana Fairchild for the joint energy. 

Lets look firstly into the DM's energies...
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Eight of Cups reversed

There are circumstances in the masculine's life that have got him wondering, "Should I stay or should I go?" For some, they may even be wondering whether they should try and move on from the divine feminine. They are caught between walking away from a disappointing situation or trying one last time to make things better. They are going inwards and trying to figure out what to do. If they are thinking of moving on from the divine feminine, this is not a bad thing (honestly!) This is a true step in SURRENDER. It has to happen at some point. For some, it is other karmic situations (not necessarily people) they are wondering about. 

Five of Cups

The masculines are severely disappointed that the connection with the divine feminine hasn’t turned out the way they expected. They feel sad and regretful. This is because many feminine's surrendered through walking away. They are finding it hard to move forward with their life and are instead feeling stuck in self-pity. All they can focus on right now is what went wrong and how they feel like they failed. But in truth they did the best they could at the time with the knowledge they had and self forgiveness is needed.

Their regrets are stirring up painful emotions which are flooding their minds and making it hard for them to concentrate on anything else right now. They have a lot of self blame but may also feel that the divine feminine "gave up". But really it was surrender, letting go of codependent ways. 

Even though they feel as though things aren’t going their way, there are other doors of opportunity waiting for them to open when they are ready. They must let go of any attachment which is causing them pain. Only through total surrender can they make the necessary room for their highest good to come in, for them to reach inner peace and union. 

The World reversed

They feel that there is unfinished business with the divine feminine. If you experienced a tower moment in your connection then the divine masculine felt as though things crumbled and changed so fast that they were left all alone and confused in the rubble, with no real closure. But that's because for twin flames the connection is never truly over, it continues. But the masculine must still move forward in his life. This is the needed opportunity for him to rise up, increase his confidence and take action to manifest the life he wants for himself outside of the connection. This is his time to become independent. 

Three of Swords reversed

He's carrying around a lot of heartbreak but very slowly it's healing. He needs to pay attention to his inner thoughts and self-talk because his inner critic has such a sharp voice which is causing damage. He's slowly coming out of the stage of being paralysed by his pain and disappointment. There's slow movement forward in the right direction of emotional freedom. 

Six of Wands

The Divine Masculine will triumph after these struggles. It will be a battle for him to pick himself up and actually feel good again, but he will get there in his own time. He will feel optimistic about life again and much more stronger. he will have learned his lessons and realised his worth in the process. 

Nine of Pentacles

He will reach true independence. This means he will have let go of codependency of the DF. He will have a much better self-image and not determine his worth on his DF's actions or opinions towards him. He is learning to take back his power by realising his self-worth is only dependent upon his own self-image, no-one else can determine how worthy he is. 

This is a HUGE step forward for the DM. He is ascending and uniting with his true self. His inner union makes way for outer union, in whichever form that appears to him  in his life. 
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Judgement

The Divine Feminine is evaluating what is and isn't working in her life. She's making modifications and improvements, getting organised and feeling good at the positive rewards that are coming as a result. She is rising up and embracing a higher state of consciousness and some are feeling that magnetic pull to really put their life purpose into action. 

Many feminine's have surrendered in their twin flame connection and as a result can see things from a much higher perspective. Hindsight has brought much clarity and wisdom and she is now putting that wisdom into action. 

The Devil reversed

She is releasing attachment and codependency. Like the masculine, she is also letting go of the self-defeating inner critic to a large degree as she realises it's not helping her to make improvements in her life, but it's merely been holding her back. She is seeing how her unhealthy attachment to the DM and chasing after his approval was not going to help her reach the SELF-esteem her soul has been craving. She realised her worth comes from within and that is what allowed her to release her grip on union happening in a specific way in order to feel validated. She is validating herself and naturally, as a result, attachment simply fell away. 

Ten of Pentacles

As the divine feminine faces her shadow side and heals, she rises up into a higher vibration. She lets go of the old to allow more room for the new to come in. She's seen the doors of opportunity before her and is opening them. As a result, so much light, love and abundance is flooding into her life. She finally learned to receive. For many feminine's, this has even made way for financial abundance to come in. 

Five of Wands

There is some conflict going on in a certain area of her life. For some it will be with her divine masculine, but for many it is with other people in their life. I get a strong sense that the feminine is working hard to try and restore balance though. There may be some power struggles going on, fears from both sides when it comes to being vulnerable. There's a sense of neither party wanting to be railroaded in any way. Healthy boundaries are being worked out. There may be some confusion going on initially in this process of working out what is healthy boundaries, no boundaries and complete barriers that block everything out. There will be some clashes with others in this matter initially, but harmony will be reached in good time. 

Ten of Cups reversed

The clashes from the Five of Wands are what is affecting the Ten of Cups to be in the reversed position. The divine feminine feels deep joy, peace and love in her life, but there's just a few issues to be smoothed out as mentioned above. Once things have been figured out and healthy compromises are made then this energy will turn "upright" again. 

Ace of Cups

There are new beginnings in love all around! Firstly, the DF is in a much higher state of self-love than she's even been in before. She feels much more love and gratitude for her divine masculine because she has come to this higher vibration and viewpoint, which has enable her to understand him and his actions more clearly. She now knows he was never responsible for giving her her self-worth but helping her to discover it within herself. 

For some there are new beginnings in love and union with their divine masculine, and for some this is with other soul mates. There is a deep sense of joy and fulfilment in her heart.  
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38 The Courage of Your Love

The following is the description from the Rumi Oracle by Alana Fairchild:

“Love is without reason; rationality is like a cane.
Judgment needs a cane, because it is blind.
When love arrives, thought dies in its shadow.
Love is the sunrise, while thought is only a flashing light.”

~ RUMI

“I do not bleat at you like a sheep, for to startle you from your slumber I need to roar like lion! You must awaken my beloved; there is no time to waster for the wolves are circling, hungry for sacred flesh. So I shall roar mightily, and although at first you recoil in fear, soon enough you will see the wolves. You become aware and grateful to have been thus awoken. Ah yes, you remember that you have a precious human life to protect. You fear me no more. You thank me. You jump on my back as if you were a warrior astride a wild mount. You roar then, along with me, awakening the others as we cause the ground to rumble, disturbing those even in their deepest slumber. You, like me, are a fierce lion, not a lamb to be led to so many slaughters, the variety of and opportunity for which is available in terrible abundance in our world.”

“There is a Sufi story about a mother with her breast leaking milk. She loses her child, and once she finds him again, instantly lets him suckle for as long as he needs.

A Sufi master nearby, says to his students, “Do you think she would throw her baby into the fire?”

And the students all say, “No! Of course not!

And the master replies, “Allah loves his children more than she, with enough tenderness to throw them into the fire.”

So it is with love. At first, as a young heart, you want only comfort for your beloved. You cannot bear the thought of pain within them, even for a moment. Your own suffering is easier than bearing the suffering of your beloved. That young heart grows wise through experience. It becomes an elder, an ancient heart tempered by grace and rendered strong with compassion. This is the great heart that can hold the suffering of the world within it, and yet still find space for peace, for sweetness, for tenderness and for rapture.

This is the heart that shines with courageous love. It is willing to feel and bear all suffering without judgement, whilst gently holding it is the truth of what that suffering really is – the drying out of the mind addicted to suffering. This drying out is a challenging and enduring process.

The path of freeing the heart from the effects of a fearful mind is an initiation into great power. So many lapses will happen before the heart grows strong enough to overpower old patterns and surrender without condition or equivocation. When it is ready to surrender in such a way, the heart is free and allowed to simply be. Even the mind then, finally freed from shackles and joyfully submitting to love, declares, “Let love be, in whatever way it shall be. I can bear it. I shall take refuge in it. I shall not turn away from it. I am that love!”

You are an ancient one with a heart older than the mountains. You are being asked to free yourself from the too-small loves of the youthful heart and come to understand and accept the wisdom of your mature heart. Your mature heart is not cured with hardness or detachment, but with compassion and tenacious devotion to the cause that is most real and matters most – the quest for life of the human soul.

Your ancient heart loves the soul and will roar like the lion of love at the wolves that would casually devour it. So trust in the courage of your heart. You are not cruel. You are not hard. You are not careless. You are passion personified. You are the lion of love. So allow yourself to be the lion, not the lamb. Stand true in your own heart. Cause trouble, make noise, be proud and be mighty. Then rest, after all after all that savage divinity, rest and restore, for day after day you shall claim your holy lands and refuse to give them up to less noble creatures. Though you survey their manipulations and attempts to claim power with compassion, you do not underestimate them or relax your vigilance. You shall not allow, for even a moment, that falsehood be vigilance. You shall not allow, for even a moment, that falsehood be accepted as truth in your heart.

This oracle comes with particular guidance for you. You are not to give into less than you are worth, or to the shaming stories of others of our culture that would cast your regal lion nature into the falsehood of beliefs that you have no choice or power. You are not to give into the idea that you are victim and cannot free yourself from your suffering, or that you are less than any other. These are lies. These are petty deceptions so unworthy of you. Do not believe them. Roar at them until the weak glue holding them together melts under the fire of your holy breath, and they lie dismembered and powerless at your feet. Then intend that those bits and pieces in decay are lovingly returned to the Earth Mother through whom they can be used to fertilise new life.

This oracle comes with another message for you. You have a challenge before you (or that you are now moving through), but you have what is necessary to succeed and overcome it. No matter how long it has endured, or how big you have built that challenge up to be in your mind, no matter how unsolvable the issue appears to be, there is and shall be a victory beyond it, and it is imminent. This oracle has come to you to let you know you are empowered to succeed, you have what is required within to do it, and that the time for your victory is drawing near.

So do not give up. Instead, do the sacred honouring ritual as needed, and when you feel so inclined, open your mouth and roar love from the very depths of your being. Create a sound of truth for yourself. In that sound you will hear the mightiest one of all roaring along with you, saying, “Yes love, I am with you, and together we claim divine victory! So we roar! how we roar!”

Sacred Honouring Ritual: “Say aloud: ‘IO call on RUMI, lion of love, and my own wise higher self. I now choose to assert the dignity of my soul and the power of my heart. I release all lesser bonds based in fear and deception. I no longer need to hold onto these. I am ready for truth and, with unconditional love, I am supported, protected and guided on my path to victory, held in guardianship by the unending power of love. So be it.’

If you feel the need to get down on all fours and roar a bit, do it – with relish. Then, you have finished your honouring ritual.”*

~ By Alana Fairchild

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Love and Light to you,

Karen x

Welcome back to another twin flame energy report. I hope you are all doing really well. In this week's report I am using the Pre-Raphaelite Tarot which is absolutely stunning!

The divine masculine energies are the cards on the left, the divine feminine's energies are the cards on the right and the joined energies are the central card.

Five of Cups reversed

After a time of deep depression and feeling as though he has lost the divine feminine, the divine masculine is turning around, seeing the light and feeling much more hopeful. He's been crying over spilled milk for a long time, not just with the feminine, but in his life in general. Now he is coming out of the dark night of the soul to embrace love again, firstly for himself and then his divine feminine. The past is now behind him and he is ready for a bright new future. 

Knight of Cups

You may be hearing from the divine masculine as he returns to you offering gifts of love, namely from his heart but perhaps even with small tokens of his affection. He is in a romantic mood and wishes to play out the role of the Knight in Shining Armour - he wants that opportunity to play that role he's always fantasized about becoming. He feels much more confident in making advances and putting his best foot forward. Deep in his heart, what he craves for most is to make you happy. 

Strength

The troubles aren't over for the masculine though. He's still slowly moving through karmic lessons and it's a bit like wading through water - he's getting there, but it feels like a struggle. He's much stronger than before though because he's already been through a lot, learned a lot and knows he can withstand great challenges. But over all, his confidence is strengthening. He knows how to quiet his inner critic and all the outer critics too. It's now much more like water off a duck's back. 

Nine of Wands

He's standing strong. It might mean he cannot fully progress forward with you right now because he's still dealing with a lot in his life, but at least he's now standing up for himself. He may have even had to put up some boundaries with his divine feminine if there were too many triggers going on. He's standing strong for himself, but ultimately for your connection too. He's working through what needs to be cleared out. He's facing his fears rather than running from them. 

Temperance reversed

Things in his life seem to be in chaos. His love for you is strong, but it's everything else around him that's all over the place. He's learning how to cope with the emotions better by being cast into the thick of things. At times he may be temporarily thrown off balance but over all he still stands strong and firm. It may come across as stubbornness from some, but really he's finding his feet, finding his truth before moving forward again. 

Three of Pentacles reversed

Things may being falling apart career wise for many divine masculine's. For some it's to make way for their spiritual mission, but some are struggling to know how to bring about their spiritual mission, how to make it practical enough to sustain a living from. He yearns to be recognised on a spiritual level, but some are afraid to be in that particular limelight. That's why some are being held back right now. They are working out how to truly LIVE their truth, how to integrate it into their every day life. 
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Six of Pentacles reversed

Many divine feminine's spent a long time giving and giving and giving to the divine masculine. There's absolutely nothing wrong with giving, but many feminine's were burning themselves out in the process. They were hoping for an equal exchange. But many df's were subconsciously operating from the wounded inner child and were partially giving in order to receive in return the ultimate validation from the divine masculine - his approval, love and commitment. But in truth his approval was not the "ultimate" validation. The true ultimate validation is the kind that we give to ourselves. Some feminine's have come to this realisation and have backed off from burning themselves out and are instead giving themselves that love and approval through the generosity of self-love. 

Ace of Wands reversed

The feminine feels as though the connection is "stuck" in many ways. She's wondering what it really takes to get things moving forward into the oneness she seeks with her divine masculine. Of course it starts from reaching the oneness within, the inner union, the self love, the knowing of one's worth through finding wholeness within. I've created a really powerful healing activation meditation called, I AM LOVED, I RECEIVE LOVE: POWERFUL UNION ALIGNMENT ACTIVATION mp3  that can really help you reach inner union. In this powerful activation I take you through the steps to clear out the areas in which you have been judging yourself, feeling unworthy, cutting yourself off from love and subconsciously blocking your union. I take you on a gentle journey to connect with your soul family and twin flame's unconditional love that they always have for you. I show you how loved you are so you can really see it, feel it and believe it, opening your heart to receive this love and your own self-love, trusting your twin flame loves you so deeply. This activates your heart to open further to receiving more and more love. Find out more here... 

​The Hanged Man

She's taken a step back to re-evaluate her life and the connection. She's in a state of confusion, wondering how to move forward, broaden her horizons. Some are wondering whether to leave the Divine Masculine behind. She must decide for herself if holding on is really holding her back and whether moving on is truly surrendering and setting herself free. We must release codependency in order to truly see how to free ourselves, how to create the time and space to be able to reach inner union. 

Six of Cups

Many df's are reuniting with friends and socialising a lot more. They may be seeking advice from others, but be careful in doing so because most people won't understand these types of connections and although they may mean well, ultimately we must all make our own decisions. If you're confused, go back to the Hanged Man energy - try to really see things from all angles before making a firm decision. Ultimately, your own intuition will know best. 

Two of Swords

Confusion will paralyse the feminine for quite a while. Be careful you aren't pulling the wool over your own eyes. Remember, this journey requires total honesty with self, not wishful thinking or being overly pessimistic. What feels right for you on a deep level? Trust whatever sincere truth comes through to you. There's a fear going on right now about making such an important decision. For some it really is a "should I stay or should I go?" dilemma. Trust the process. Whatever you release, you make more room for your highest good to come in. If you release your twin and it doesn't manifest into union, it's because there's something better out there for you. But for some, it does manifest as a union with that person. If you need help in truly surrendering, going with the flow and letting the universe deliver you your highest good, then my powerful meditation Fearless Faith: I Am Safe to Trust - Powerful Block Removal Activation will help you do just that. This activation has created profound results for many of my clients. 
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The High Priestess

The divine feminine will be going inwards, reconnecting with her goddess wisdom. He intuition will be strong and she will see beyond the veil of illusion and conditioning into the deep realms of soul truth. This will be an amazing revelation and truly life-changing. She will see that which she could not for a very long time. The veil is lifted, the truth revealed and the following sense of liberation will be magnificent. True freedom. From this place she will be able to make good and solid decisions about her life and future. She will make bold steps into a broader horizon, allowing the doors of opportunity to open in front of her every step. 
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Five of Swords reversed

This is more positive in the reversed position. Conflicts between the twins are over. Some of you are looking how to broaden your horizons together, beyond triggering, fights and disharmony. You may be on the fence for a while, wondering whether these difficulties can be overcome, but they will be. many of you will sort out these conflicts together, for a small few it will mean walking away to resolve it. But most of you will work together again in more harmony than ever before. You will know which of these interpretations is real for you in your heart. Trust your truth.   

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I hope you have enjoyed this week's twin flame energy report. If you would like to hear a powerful message from your spirit guide through the aid of Alana Fairchild's Rumi Oracle deck then I offer a service where I shuffle the cards, pull out one just for you and read the detailed card description in a recorded audio message. If you are interested in one of these readings then please purchase below.

Love and Light to you on your journey,

Karen x ​

Welcome to another twin flame energy update. It's been a busy few months but I'm feeling the calling to do another written reading. This time I'm using rose quartz runes and some of my son's story cubes, which work really well as a divination tool. 

For any of you who may have missed my notifications, I have recently been working on building my other  YouTube channel Soul Whispers Tarot, where I create similar themed readings but in a pick a card style. I plan to work more on my Twin Flame Psychic 1111 channel again very soon when the school holidays are finished. In the meantime, if you wish to catch up on some readings on my other channel please check them out here...

Please note: These readings may be triggering to some. All I try to do is open people's eyes so they can look more closely at themselves, their motives and how they are getting stuck. These readings are never intended to point blame or make anyone feel bad about themselves. My aim is to try and help everyone empower themselves by taking responsibility for their own emotional wellbeing through understanding their own actions and motivations so they can look deeper and break any destructive habits that are holding them back. 

Now lets get into the current twin flame energy update...
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At this time the masculine is feeling left out and like an outcast. For some, they are feeling this way especially with the divine feminine. For those of you in union already, they are experiencing these painful emotions when it comes to their biological family. But in both cases, the masculine's have spent their life feeling like the black sheep of the family. For those whom have gone through a recent difficult time with their feminine, they are feeling like the black sheep of your soul family as well. 

There's been an ongoing theme over the past few months of illusions and deceptions coming to the surface. Both twins have made mistakes, haven't been honest with themselves and have worn masks with each other. Both have regrets about past behaviour. Many feminine's assembled healthy boundaries because there needed to be time apart, time of inner reflection for both twins. The masculine feels embarrassed and ashamed of their behaviour (and many feminine's feel the same way about their own behaviour). 

The masculine's difficult upbringing threw him into the deep end of loneliness and despair. They felt different from the blood family around them and for good reason - they are different, they are here on a special mission of awakening and helping others to do the same.  It was a time of sink or swim, to get stuck in thinking the family abuse or abandonment was personal, or to awaken and realise it's helped them strengthen and awaken even further, for their loneliness isolated them deeper into themselves. Most sunk into the depths of painful shadow for many years and some are still travelling through the murky depths unable to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Some of the masculine's have emerged, wiser and stronger with a total understanding of why they chose to incarnate into such difficult circumstances - they have now thrived after their adversity. Of course, the exact same can be said for the feminine's who have gone through a difficult upbringing. 

Your connection triggers the abandonment and rejection wounds and causes a fight, flight or freeze response. This is why many twin's run or simply get stuck (again, the feminine's do the same). However, many have now learned to stay and fight their fears, stand up for themselves and honour themselves and their life. They are no longer "taking it lying down", they are getting back up time and time again and fighting for their truth. 

If there has been a recent physical separation between you and your twin flame, then some are feeling a sense of rivalry and the fear that your connection's foundation has crumbled. This is causing them to be powerfully triggered right now. They have this overall feeling of not belonging or not knowing where they stand with you right now.

For those of you in union, your twin flame sees you as the one who accepts and loves them for who they truly are. They feel your unconditional love and they are very grateful and relieved to finally merge with that oneness. They feel that you love them or know how to show them love more than their blood family can or do. 

The cactus symbolises your connection holding strong no matter what's going on right now. It represents protection and endurance in harsh conditions. Your connection is strong and will withstand any arguments, boundaries placements and dramatic changes. Your connection is helping whatever needs to be released to come to the surface. 

The spines of the cactus represent how the DM tries to protect himself. This could manifest as harsh words, arguments, intense insecurities, making it difficult for you to get close. You may feel the need to protect yourself in response. But they needed to created this defence mechanism from a young age in order to survive their harsh upbringing. Trust issues will likely come up within your connection because you will undoubtedly remind them of their blood family in certain ways, especially during those triggering moments. This is because your connection is based on unconditional love and so these wounds can be worked through completely where the unconditional love will endure. 

At this time they may feel that they are stuck in the middle of a desert so to speak in respect to your connection. They feel like there's a drought, that the well of your love has dried up, or they fear it will. They are trying to store and hold onto your love deep inside of themselves. It endures. 
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The masculine feels the tremendous shift that has occurred in your connection. They really are feeling this as a new beginning. If you have moved away from each other in the physical, they are embracing the areas of their life they may have been neglecting when there was codependency between you. This is a very important stage in their healing. 

There's a feeling of a huge weight being lifted from their shoulders which gives way to much more emotional freedom. This is because codependency has fallen away in your connection. If you have surrendered the connection then they are feeling the relief of many of the DF's removing certain unrealistic expectations they were once placing upon them. They are no longer feeling boxed into an ideal they could never live up to. (*Please note I am not saying that twin flames or union are fantasies, I am meaning the various fantasy versions we can project into the connection based on our childhood wounding).

Union only occurs when we can love and accept the person for who they are without trying to change them to suit what we want. If certain aspects of them are a deal breaker then it's best to surrender the idea of being with them romantically and keep moving forward. Often that's when we learn to really accept them and love them for who they are - i.e. you still love them even though you don't need to be with them. 

Some of you have come into union and this feels like a blissful new beginning for the DM who went through many years of feeling stuck in that love drought, not just with the divine feminine but in all kinds of relationships, including with self. They learned to love themselves despite their difficult childhood, they graduated their lessons and were able to finally receive love. (Of course both twins need to be at the same stage of this for union to occur). 

​For those of you whom have reached union, you have aligned with your soul sovereignty, represented by the crown. The masculine has united with his divinity on a whole new level. He feels like the king and he feels that he finally has his queen. He feels loved by you like no other. This is a time of victory, triumph, honour and glory. 

This is a beautiful new dawn for these masculines. You are helping them understand their worth on a whole new level and they are rising in their confidence and really embarking upon their spiritual mission because you have validated what they have already known deep down all along but doubted - that they are a divinely powerful being with an extremely important purpose to help others and the world. You are the person to receive them in their true divine nature whereas in the past no one else could see them in that light so they doubted themselves. You are the key that has opened the lock to their divine power.  
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​The masculine has "heard the calling" of the divine. Many truths have been revealed, many epiphanies reached. They had been stuck in their wounding for so long that they clung to their codependent safety net (again, as did many feminines). Once that comfort zone crumbled through a major upheaval, they could finally be honest with themselves and each other and face their fears. They have surrendered and this has created space for the new beginnings to come in.  

Those in union, they DM feels blessed by the universe to have finally united with you after searching for so long or watching you from afar. They are "looking to the stars" in wonder and truly grounding the spiritual side of themselves they felt they could not fully express before. You are the ears to truly hear them in their deepest depths and it's truly liberating for them. 

​They are broadening their horizons, searching for deeper meaning and looking to the skies in wonder and gratitude. They are preparing for even greater shifts in their life. Comfort zones and things that they felt were an integral part of themselves have fallen away, drastic change has occurred so fresh new beginnings can unfold in a higher vibration. 

For those of you in physical separation, they are spying on you from afar and searching for solutions to come closer to you again. They feel the magnetism acutely. Finally, they may be taking notice of what the divine is showing them. 

​This is the rune of pain, heartbreak and sorrow. Interestingly the cactus similarly has spines just like thorns. Again, it's about protection. They may have experienced such a traumatic childhood that their defence mechanism makes it incredibly difficult for them to open up to you. Many of them are quick to defend themselves and can jump to negative conclusions based on their upbringing. Their sorrow and pessimistic outlook causes them to distrust others. 

Some of them feel a lot of pain like a dagger to the heart if you've walked away. The abandonment wounds is coming up very strongly. 

But I feel there is an even deeper meaning to this. The thorn symbol also reminds me of Christ and the Crown of Thorns (as Crown came out too aobve). When Christ was crucified the Roman soldiers "twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on His head." This was their way of mocking him, taking a symbol of royalty and majesty, a crown, and turning it into something painful and degrading. 

The crown of thorns represents going though the painful journey of initiation into Christ consciousness, going through all the triggering to heal the soul and become an inspiration for others. The twin flame journey into enlightenment is incredibly painful at times, but you come out the other side victorious. 

Some of the masculine's (and feminine's) have tried to evade moving into the light because it means going through the darkness first. 

As a side note, some are directly fearful of being mocked by ignorant people whom would consider their spiritual beliefs to be too much of a "feminine" thing. Nothing could be further from the truth because it takes a hell of a lot of courage to stand in the light, to go against the grain and go up against such opposition. 

The thorn also reminds me of the Rumi Oracle card "Celestial Rose of Ma" by Alana Fairchild:


The taste of bitterness

becomes sweet in love!

The searching in the dark

finds the light of faith revealed in love!

Love transforms thistles into jasmine.

Love layers heaven,

and gifts us

with wings to soar into its mystery.

Love transforms our every thought

into a desire of the heart!

O Love!

How divine is your luring!

Beauty flows from your unseen face!

Your very nature is radiant with joy!

You manifest hues in every flower!

Your touch dazzles all creation!

Every particle is attracted toward you,

longing to unite

and dwell in you!

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This card signifies the spiritual gift of love that is on its way to you when you open yourself up to truly receive. The gift of sacred love can raise you up beyond any pain you have known and subsequent self imposed limits. Now is the time to venture out of the darkness of pain and into uncharted territory as you merge with the higher vibration of love. 

Life will seem more meaningful, uplifting and special. You will be moved by the beautiful perfection of the universe's timing and integration of this love in your life. You will recognise that everything had to happen exactly the way it did in order to bring you here. 

The card signifies the end of a period of suffering and the dawn of wonderful new opportunities. We have to go through the shadows before we can come into the light. If we want the beauty of the rose, we must go through the thorns. This is our initiation, our preparation to become ready to merge with the rose, the high vibration of sacred love. The thorns could represent our own fears of opening our heart, the triggering we experience with our twin flame or and obstacles that must be surmounted before we are truly ready. ​

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They are reminiscing about the past with you and many are looking at old photos and pictures of you on social media, possibly Instagram. They are wanting to preserve your connection and are holding onto moments in time they feel are slipping away from them. Many of them are experiencing sorrow and have regrets about the past. They are wishing they could go back to happier times with you. 

Now lets look into the divine feminine's energies...
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​​The divine feminine is delving even deeper into her psyche, reaching increasing clarity having traversed through a very rocky terrain of late. Crumbled illusions of the past have made way for crystal clear vision. She understands more than ever what unconditional love truly means. She's recognised how fantasies were blocking true union with the divine masculine twin flame. She's dropped the fantasy which had been her crutch for a long time, a subconscious way for her to protect her heart by not becoming "too real" or too grounded. 

She is feeling a deep pull into a higher vibration as she releases her attachments that have tethered her for so long in her comfort zone. The blocks, illusions, delusions and fantasies felt safe because they chained her and limited her to the energies she was used to of the past. The ego feels most comfortable in what it already knows. But now the blocks are crumbling there's no heavy weight holding her down. She's soaring higher and it's frightening. Many are filled with deep anxiety or they feel that they are "going crazy" but really it's the ego death, the rising into the higher vibration, the feeling of floating higher without the constraints. She's wondering where it's going to take her. It may feel like the panic some people experience with astral travel, when they are leaving their body. She needs to trust. She's ascending into a higher vibration.

In this higher state of consciousness she is able to access more soul records, more insights, deeper truths. Many are feeling restless as this transition occurs and there's a deep sense of greater spiritual purpose she's going to be embarking on.
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Some of the feminine's were caught under a spell or fantasy. That's not to say your connection wasn't real, but many unrealistic idealisations were being projected into the connection by most (some DM's did the same). The main reason for this has been due to inner child wounds; wanting our twin to love us in all the ways we felt our parents didn't love us. Our twin was likely emotionally unavailable just like our parents were or mirrored some other kind of dysfunction we experienced in childhood. 

We were subconsciously trying to get our twin to love, validate, adore, cherish us etc in the ways our parents hadn't. We were trying to resolve that deep wound and had unconsciously made our twin responsible for our inner happiness when that's not their job. They literally cannot make us happy and vice versa if we aren't happy within ourselves. It would have only been temporary at best if we hadn't healed ourselves. Of course the masculine's were looking to the feminine's in the exact same way for that love and validation. It's just that many masculine twin's likely experienced a lot of pain in terms of parents and society having unrealistic expectations of them. They never felt accepted or loved exactly for who they are right now. Many feminine's have been the mirror of that ongoing wound within the masculine to trigger it up in him. 

The potion can symbolism that some have literally been doing love spells to try and manipulate the free will of the DM. This never works in any positive way, and besides, why would you want someone who only wanted to be with you because their free will had been manipulated? Twin flame union is all about being in a high vibration, having union within yourself first, i.e. self love and not needing outside validation to know your worth. 

Others have been too reliant on tarot readings or seeking out guidance and information from mediums to the point of becoming ungrounded and out of touch with their own intuition. 

For many the spell has been broken. We had to release the dreams so that reality can truly ground in our life. The fantasies had blocked us, kept us living for the future and not truly living now. Any time the dream was threatened when our twin did something that didn't coincide with it, we felt powerless to feel happy. We'd placed our happiness on the idea that the fantasy was going to manifest exactly in the way our ego wanted it to. 

There was a major lesson here. For a long time the ego was seduced by the dream of how union was going to look (based on the inner child wounds). It held onto this idealised version for dear life. But then stagnation happened for a LONG time! The feminine's were stuck and stuck and stuck some more, waiting, twiddling her thumbs, pulling her hair out. Nothing was manifesting because the vision she held wasn't totally real. She was still looking to him and his love to heal her. There was still a lot of codependency. 

For many, the stagnation became so unbearable (because your soul wanted to continue growing and moving you in the right direction) that something major (and painful) happened to anger you enough to get you moving again! In most cases it was moving on! You were about to finally understand the lesson. To me, karma represents our illusions, the lessons we need to learn and until we fully learn and understand them, we get stuck going in the same circles, caught up in the same karmic cycle. 

So many of you "threw in the towel".  And it's a good thing! (Don't believe those naysayers who judge you and say you gave up because you're an impatient brat!) No no no! What really happened is, YOU SURRENDERED! ..........FINALLY! 

Reality finally had the opportunity to come knocking at your door. You could finally ground yourself! You learned that being REAL is always better than being seduced by a fantasy. Why? Because when you're real you are living your life right now, you're not waiting about and constantly stressing, you're not tethering your happiness to someone else or their decisions or lack of decisions. You're no longer sitting on the edge of your seat, pricking up your ears and holding your breath for your twin to reach out, commit or basically validate you. Your life no longer revolves around a tunnel vision. You're no longer limiting your life by trying to focus everything into that one vision, that one ideal, that one fantasy version of happiness. Things no longer feel like a life or death situation! You're no longer having to stuff down that sinking feeling in your heart, the intuition that was telling you all along that you deserved so much more than what you were holding out for. (The masculine's deserve more than someone wanting them to change and not accepting them for who they are right now too). 

When you truly surrender you're no longer taking everything so personally. You're no longer being hurt left right and centre because this person COULDN'T be the fantasy that your ego wanted - it was keeping you trapped in the wounding. It was this person's job to NOT give you what your ego thought would heal you so you can snap out of it, know you deserve better, know your worth and HEAL YOURSELF through letting go. That's what you deserved. TRUE HEALING and wholeness. This person has always loved you in soul because they agreed to this massive task of helping you realise it and create it for yourself.  

When you go through this, YOU'RE FREE! You can open your eyes, say "fuck it" and throw it all to the wind. You go with the flow, you know you deserve to have only the best when you put in so much work. You see how you'd been fooling yourself and selling yourself short in many ways. 

You realised your own part you played in your pain in this situation! you realised how you were hurting the other person too through not truly accepting them for who they are but wanting to mould them into the fantasy ego version to suit you. 

After the high of the fantasy of Laguz and the Potion the feminine's experienced what appeared to be a huge injustice which was designed to "break the spell" and wake her up. The lesson here was about learning the difference between true unconditional love and warped versions of it, i.e. having no healthy boundaries and being a doormat. She had to realise all the ways in which she hadn't been loving herself by putting up with things her intuition had been warning her not to put up with all along. 

BUT there was another MAJOR lesson here about unconditional love and injustice. She had to see that she wasn't the only one who experienced injustice in the connection. She had to realise how she wasn't being fair to the divine masculine either, how she was trying to control him and mould him into the fantasy version she thought would heal her inner child wounds. She had to see that it wasn't fair at all, that it wasn't his job to change and be what she wanted him to be. She had to realise that she'd had a warped sense of entitlement and assumed that her needs were more important than his, or assumed she knew exactly what he needed. For all this time she'd been indirectly rejecting him and triggering his wounds by not accepting him for who he is right now. 

She had to realise that she wasn't the only "victim". It's not the divine masculine's fault that he literally cannot become an ungrounded fantasy. She had to learn to be real, with herself, with him, see him for who he really is right now, be her true self right now too and not try to be a fantasy version of herself either. She had to take responsibility for her own emotional wellbeing and happiness. Now that's true freedom! 

​She placed healthy boundaries once the spell had been broken. But she also realised something else very important... She could now see how her fantasy version of the connection had been her own shield to keep true and grounded intimacy at a safe distance. She'd been pushing him away with her unrealistic and unrelenting ideals he could never live up to. On a deep subconscious level she'd known that all along. She was setting him up for failure and subsequent harsh judgement / rejection (pushing him away then blaming him for his "running"). We see this A LOT in forums, YouTube comments and blog comments! So many feminine's are so angry at the DM without any true idea how they themselves are being unrealistic and unfair. Who do we think we are believing we know what's best for someone else and saying they need to change to accommodate what we want?!! It sounds so ludicrous when we really think about it! I couldn't consciously see it within myself for years either! 

Some of the feminine's have realised the errors in their ways and are truly remorseful and therefore forgiving of the divine masculine. They realise that in simple, a real connection could not ground from a place of so much illusion. It wasn't his "fault" or hers, it was just the wounds that blind us that were playing out. 

Many have dropped these ludicrous illusions. They've accepted that things aren't going to manifest into a romantic relationship and some are even relieved to release that idea because now, through being honest with themselves, they see how incompatible they really are with this person and always have been. What a relief to drop that whole energy of trying to squeeze a square peg through a round hole! The fantasy was resistance to allowing true love to come in on all levels. Yes, the soul love IS real with that person, but it doesn't always equate to blissful harmony and compatibility in an Earthly sense. But the lesson was learned through this whole experience. And that's the point. To learn self love. 

Once all the fantasies (resistance) is released, then the real, true, unconditional love can rise up from beneath such illusion. That's when you can truly appreciate your twin flame for who they are right now. You appreciate the deep soul love that exists and how you agreed before incarnating to help each other is such profound ways. You are grateful for the lessons, the preparation for you to love yourself in order to receive love and a balanced physical union. 

Some of you have reached physical twin flame union through this major shift. Through releasing the resistance, you have allowed what's right for you to come in. Some of you may be totally shocked at how fast it happened. It may be with this person you labelled twin for so long or with someone else who feels more of a true fit than you realised was possible. either way, it feels like a true union. 

Through the surrender, the feminine's have opened themselves for the real version of love. Love is love, and it was always present with this person, but it was just hidden beneath the fairytale versions that actually hold us back and keep us stuck. The real version is groundable. For many of you this experience with your twin / someone you thought was your twin wasn't grounding, and all the lessons that went along with it prepared you to truly value healthy and grounded relationships and become ready to attract that into your reality.

Many people go through a long period where they are turned off by emotionally available partners when they aren't available themselves. This is what many feminine's healed through this experience. They loved in the emotionally UN-available way, the "safe" way, the fantasy, until they were ready for the real thing. By experiencing the mirror of your own emotional unavailability, you could heal yourself and value reality, real love, seeing just how magical it is without the need for fantasy. It's magnificent enough in itself to not need any fantasy input. 

You see, the ego loves problem solving and creating a project so it looks for drama, it looks for a puzzle to solve, often an extremely complicated and messy puzzle. Everyone, on an unconscious level, wants to work for real love because it feels much better to feel like we earned it rather than it being handed to us on a silver platter. Some of you did this "working towards" and putting in a ton of effort to "earn" love with a supposed twin, then got the "reward" of real love with someone else. The reward was, of course, the realisation (through all the hard work!) that you don't have to work so hard to "earn" love, that you are already worthy and always have been. It's not about working hard to be good enough. All the hard work, that didn't pay off in the way your ego wanted actually made you realise that you deserve more than having to slave away just to be validated, recognised, loved. When your ego wasn't "rewarded" through it's efforts, you tossed ego aside and realised your worth. You were then ready for the real thing. 

This difficult and exhausting experience made you truly appreciate the real thing, real love, as opposed to the elaborate and unrealistic fantasy version of it. That's not to say that the real thing is anything but magical. 

Some of you may have gone through a period where the grass was greener on the fantasy side. It was a form of escapism, of getting away from something you didn't want to deal with in your real life, running from self, running from your pain by residing in your thoughts, in a "safe" dream world. In that cocoon you could test the waters and experiment with love and expressing your emotions. You could satisfy the ego's version of "love" with all it's drama, complications, theatrical wonder because the ego doesn't believe that such wonder is real, it thinks it has to make it up in order to feel special. It believes you have to become someone "better" than yourself to be lovable. But through this experience you realise that true and spectacular love IS real, there's no need to make it up. You realise your worth and therefore attract the thing into your life. You become mature and finally ready to receive love. YOU become emotionally available and anyone who isn't becomes a turn off to you. 

To me, the snake represents temptation. The fantasy version of love seemed so seductive and it's because it was feeding the ego. It was like a quick-fix to validate the ego without all the scary realness and closeness of a grounded relationship. (Of course this is just a simplification and there's sooo much more to these soul connections that just that!)

The snake is also about trickery. Both the DM and DF were wearing masks, pulling the wool over their own eyes let alone the other's eyes. Both were trying to be "more" than who they were because they felt unworthy in their true authentic selves. They were playing out simultaneously a deep soul love and the projected immature love that could only survive by feeding the illusions. The illusions weren't necessarily malicious in nature at all, but for some they could have been, i.e. blatant lies. But to me the snake in general is about us lying to ourselves and playing a role with each other. 

Many Df's consider the DM to be a snake. But some need to realise that they themselves were trying to manipulate their DM. Some feminine's tried to be a puppet master to their DM, thinking they knew what was best for both of them and trying to pull his strings in ways to make him do what she wanted him to do. I don't say any of this to place blame or cause people to feel about about themselves. All I try to do is open people's eyes so they can look more closely at themselves, their motives and how they are getting stuck. 

​The DF's are seeing the bigger picture. They understand the sequence of events that have lead them to exactly where they need to be right now. They are now in a place of receiving everything they worked so hard to achieve. They are receiving what is divinely theirs. 

"Cup" makes me think of the suit of cups in the tarot, which is about emotions and love. The Divine Feminine is receiving her bounty in love. She is feeling so much emotional fulfilment. Because she surrendered  and let go of resistance (holding onto specific versions of how she saw union occurring) she made room to be able to receive true union. Firstly, it was within, through her increased self-love and the final realisation of her true worth, then it is reflected outwardly in the form of her counterpart. 

She is feeling a lot of freedom, a huge weight off her shoulders and a sigh of relief. She is broadening her horizons where once she was so blinded by fixating on a very limiting fantasy version of love. 

​The DF is now experiencing a lot of movement or travel as opposed to her previous stagnation. She is broadening her horizons emotionally and physically. But she takes her responsibilities with her wherever she goes. She has learned a lot, especially to do with being responsible for her own emotional wellbeing and also being responsible with how she relates to and treats another in order to not tread on their feelings. She is taking the unconditional love for her twin flame with her wherever she goes. 

I hope this update has been helpful and eye-opening. If you would like more personalised insights into your connection and how your Divine Masculine is feeling then you may be interested in my Messages From The Divine Masculine Oracle Deck. The deck contains 100 cards with channelled messages from the Divine Masculine collective energy. These cards can give you deep insights into your twin flame's thoughts and feelings about you and your connection. These can include unspoken words, confirmations and higher self messages. I will be delivering on 23rd September 2019. Please see below.

Love and Light to you on your continued journey,

​Karen x

Hey everyone, I hope you are doing very well. I am back again with another twin flame energy report. I am going to talk a lot about fantasy vs. reality when it comes to twin flame connections. I am going to discuss how the twin flame label can actually be the very limitation your soul is trying to expand you beyond and how the community in general has really gotten off track with all the focus on attaining a romantic outcome. 

Now don't get me wrong, this isn't a story about how I once believed in twin flames, then got hurt and disappointed and suddenly didn't believe in twin flames anymore and became all bitter and did a 180 and was totally against it, saying it's all bullshit after all. No no. The connection I share with this man is still very real, it's just that all (or hopefully most of) the bs illusions we'd surrounded it with (which were more about ego desires) have been dissolved. The fear-based codependency has fallen away to reveal the true nature of our soul bond - unconditional love. 

Yes, *yawn*, we've heard so many times that twin flames are all about unconditional love blah, blah, blah. The trouble is, these types of themes are discussed so much in the community that we become numb to them, they become like a catchphrase and lose their meaning because we stop taking the time to think deeply about what is being said and how it relates to our own connection in the present moment. For example, when we hear things like, "It's not about romance, it's about the soul growth", we can think "Yes" for a few seconds but then go back to pining after the romantic outcome over all.  

As a divine messenger, a divine guinea pig, coming back to you with the results, sharing with you the rawness of my ever-evolving perspective as layer upon layer of bullshit peels away, I've got to risk looking like a fool on this unfolding path. It's all about the journey into truth after all isn't it? Not some bs holy grail story about reaching some fantasy destination of "union" that's been disguised as the whole purpose of the connection but is really the main bs factor in the whole equation? The whole point is that we have union right now and holding out for a 3D version to "prove it" is the very illusion we are meant to learn from and overcome. Sometimes we have to be burned by the illusion in order to honour the truth that may not seem as exciting to the ego, but is totally nourishing to the soul. 

I now firmly believe that the REAL point, the real lesson we are supposed to finally grasp through this experience is how the seduction of fantasy actually robs us of our beautiful, grounded, present-moment reality. It causes us to focus on what's "missing" (looking outside of ourselves) and overlook what we already have (love, peace, joy within). It's ALL about perspective. Whatever story we attach to something is what we believe. So, if we believed we needed this person in a specific way to be happy, we're gunna be miserable unless we attain that. That's basically choosing misery when we place our emotional wellbeing on people and circumstances out of our control. But how we feel on the inside, that IS a choice, whether we want to believe that or not. Again, it may not sound as exciting to the ego than the fantasy of having a whirlwind romance with our twin flame, but the fantasy is merely the "outer wrapping" and inside ourselves is where the real substance of peace will be found. 

That's what the devil card in the tarot has been about; two beautiful beings bound together in fear and the seduction of fantasy to try and stave away that fear, robbing them of the beautiful reality of what they truly share and what they truly are as individuals - unconditional love and peace, right now. The fantasy (created from a place of fear and illusion) binds, blinds, suffocates and limits us; the reality (created from a place of love and truth) liberates, enlightens and expands us. 
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Many of us are at this stage of no longer holding out for a romantic relationship with our twin flame so now the fear of "non-union" (but that's an illusion in itself) has died. We've experienced a rebirth, we feel free, we're not afraid of loss. Many of you still feel the soul love but you're finally accepting that in the 3D you're just not compatible. You realise that the romantic fantasy was a form of escapism, a way to add so much wonder into your life with the excitement of the possible potential of the future. For many, the biggest fear is losing the dream. The connection you share is very real, but the projections we "get high" from become the poisonous addiction that keeps us stuck in stagnation and illusion and ultimately pain when we start to believe that our happiness and peace is out of our hands. It's not. It's only a story we believe that tells us we can only have the "ultimate happiness" with this other person. 

When that bubble finally bursts and we have to face the reality which deep down we always knew, we begin to see just how much the red flags were clear all along, pointing to our 3D incompatibility. The whole twin flame "movement" seems to be obsessed with changing ourselves, waiting for our twin to change, waiting for the future or divine timing or something else that keeps us out of the loop of living life in the now and being happy now. Yes, we are told to be happy within ourselves rather than waiting for "twin" but, how many of us can fully be happy and at peace if we've always got one foot in the door of a possible future that always seems just out of reach? Can you be fully free to move forward, keep growing and expanding when that foot is wedged in that door, tethering you to the spot? But I believe we all go through this phase of holding onto the dream to learn just how much we were seeking happiness outside of ourselves and holding ourselves back in the present moment. 

But many of us have now freed ourselves. In the past we would have turned down new opportunities, kept certain doors shut, stayed on a fixed path which was likely very limiting for us because we were holding out for a certain goal of union with our twin. We were clipping our own wings and waiting, travelling down the same road that turned out to be going in circles. We kept saying to ourselves, "I swear I've seen that tree before, that signpost looks familiar, here's the same crossroads again!" Eventually, the truth finally dawned on us (often through a tower moment) and we could finally accept that we were holding ourselves back. We'd held onto the belief that we knew our destination and had to just stay on the same path to get there and we thought we knew better than the universe about what's best for us. But it's really not meant to be such a struggle. Honestly. The ego loves struggle, but we've outgrown the ego. Instead, we've now thrown caution to the wind, we're allowing life to unfold as it will, allowing new doors to open, new outcomes to unfold. We are going with the flow, allowing the universe to deliver that which we were previously resistant to allowing. 

I know this sounds typical of someone who's let go of the idea of a 3D twin flame union and it may be another yawn-inducing concept to some, but I too am no longer resonating so much with the "twin flame" label. But for ease of understanding I will still call him that. I haven't "demoted" him lol. I've just stopped being so singular in my focus. I'm expanding. When we focus so much on "twin flame" and "he/she's the only one for me", "...brings me the deepest meaning in my life" etc etc, we start closing the doors to other people, experiences and meaning in our life. The labels can create a lot of tunnel vision. To hold onto just one special person "made just for me" is beginning to sound very codependent and more like an ego-based thing. It's like a "you and me against the world" kind of attitude and I feel it's created more segregation in my life. It's like creating a barrier around you both, a special club where no-one else is allowed access. It makes you both feel special but it can start segregating you from the rest of the world around you. Hold onto the theories too tightly and you start squeezing yourself tighter and tighter into an obsessive bottleneck. It becomes very restricting. 

Don't get me wrong, my isolation from the outside world around me has served it's purpose to make me closer to God, my own soul and self-love, but it's now time to ground myself again, get back out into the world and truly live all that I have learned over these years. 

At this time I am much more drawn to the phrase "soul family" rather than "twin flame" as I feel it is far more "safe" of a category because it allows for movement, flow, flexibility, expansion and it's far less likely to induce codependency, obsession and isolation. I'm not even sure if there is the "One" but more likely several "ones" and no, I am not saying that just to kid myself that I can "transfer" all this love and fantasy I built up with my twin onto my new partner. I definitely feel we are all close soul family members. I'm actually very wary of labelling my new relationship, other than soul family. It isn't a case of now I'm with someone new I'm going to try and forget all about who I labelled twin, and project all these unresolved fantasies onto the new partner. No, no no, I want something real. And I want the realness of mine and "twin's" connection too. Letting go of fantasies allows you to align with the authenticity of it all, which allows for expansion and the dissolution of rigid tunnel vision.  

When we TRULY surrender and let go of the dream, reality comes knocking at our door and the reality is ALWAYS better than an illusion (fantasy). Yes, at first it may not FEEL better when you are going through the mourning stages of releasing the dream, but something much better for you comes along (if you have taken the time to do the healing work). What manifests is something that is much more in alignment with you, with your TRUTH. Many people worry that if they start a relationship with anyone other than their "twin", then that relationship wouldn't be as satisfying, would be "boring" or lacking in "spark" compared to your twin flame. But this is where fantasies have become damaging for you and for the potential of your future relationships with anyone other than "twin". 

If you have this fear that a relationship with someone else would be "dull" in comparison to the one you labelled twin, then it's time to get TOTALLY honest with yourself. Was a lot of that "spark" for "twin" created by the countless "what if's", the tantalising mystery and suspense, the need for answers, the thrill of the chase, the brushing under the carpet of poor behaviour, the ups and downs of pleasure and pain, the fantasies of the "perfect" union? How much of the fantasy was actually grounded in 3D? Yes, there is an undeniable spark and euphoria of the soul love, yes the connection is very real, I'm not denying that or trying to devalue that at all, but was that really translating into harmonious bliss and compatibility in the physical? Or was everything littered with countless setbacks, obstacles, incompatibilities?

And no, I am not trying to imply a happy 3D relationship with someone else is either more or less important than this connection you have with "twin" either. I'm just trying to say that perhaps this connection is amazing in terms of soul love, healing, lessons, kinship etc etc, but maybe that just doesn't translate into a compatible romantic relationship. You can also have these spiritual qualities with someone whom you are compatible with and it will be different, I'm not trying to say it will be the same as with "twin", but "different" doesn't mean "not as good" as with "twin" either. Lets be conscious of the subconscious assumptions we might be making about other relationships. These subconscious cynical thoughts can be extremely damaging. 

Let us all be aware of something: NO ONE CAN COMPARE TO A FANTASY. Are you going to shut the door on a potential beautiful reality because you're still seduced by a fantasy? Are you still going to choose to stay on that karmic merry-go-round? Are you brave enough to embrace the truth? Because the truth is far more beautiful than you think if you LET it be. Our perspective determines how we see it all. Are you going to choose to be grounded and real or spin yourself a yarn, getting tangled up in it all and being caught in the web of karmic pain? Again, I am not trying to devalue your "twin" connection, I'm just trying to help you expand your perspective, open your heart to ALL possibilities. Set yourself free, go with the flow. I assure you, it will bring you much more peace to just go with where the universe is trying to take you. If it all feels like such a struggle with "twin" then it's because something isn't quite right, it's just not clicking in that way. I no longer believe it's just a case of needing to "shift" something within yourself to make it happen with this person. Yes, shift yourself into deeper happiness and healing by all means, but be open to your highest good unfolding in ways you may not be allowing yourself to envision. 

I'm now going to tell you something very important. The success or failure of your future happiness and future romantic life is determined by what perspective you decide to choose from this point onward. You have two choices. You can choose:

Perspective One: which goes something along the lines of, "I can only be happy with this one person, my twin flame." (they may not even be your twin, but even if they are, it might not be part of your contract to be with them romantically). "I can only be happy if a specific outcome happens with this one person." So you hold on and close the door to any opportunity with anyone else. Or you let them go and tell yourself "I lost my twin flame. I will never be happy again, I will never be as happy with anyone else." thus guaranteeing you will never be truly happy, you will be miserable and stuck on this person, stuck on the past, stuck on the fantasy, stuck on the "what if's" that were never even real, never truly opening your heart to anyone else, always comparing other people to a fantasy. But it's really just about how you are choosing to see everything. (It's 22:22 as I'm writing this!)

Or you can choose, 

Perspective Two: which goes along the lines of, "It's dangerous to assume I know the whole story of how my life is meant to unfold. It's damaging to believe I can only be happy with one person. This person may not even be my twin flame. Even if they are, we may be destined for other partners who we can be happier with. The label "twin flame" can imply that this is the "ultimate partner" but is that really true? Or is that a man made concept based on old paradigms? I choose to remain open and flexible to allow my highest good to come in. I am no longer going to have rigid beliefs about my romantic life that clip my wings and potentially destroy my future happiness. I choose to be in the moment, to be grounded, to appreciate what is real rather than favouring a fantasy, which only keeps me ungrounded and focusing in the wrong direction. I am keeping my heart open to love in all forms." This allows you to keep your heart open to new people and possibilities that may be better for you. You realise it's your own perspective that makes all the difference. You ALLOW different possibilities to provide happiness, not just one fixed ideal you're trying to squeeze everything into. 

Which one are you going to choose?

If you hold onto a label and convince yourself that that was your one chance of true happiness and you "lost" it, then you will always go into future relationships comparing them to that person, that dream, that very limiting outlook. That is why holding onto these labels can be very destructive to your future. Just imagine someone never got over someone from their past, and believed wholeheartedly that it was meant to work out with that person but it didn't, and now they believed they just had to just "settle" for someone else. What if they were wrong, what if it wasn't meant to work out with the person they thought was "the one"? What if they were meant to be with this new person but their limiting perspective held them back from ever being happy with the new person or any other person for that matter? That's a sad story that I hope never becomes a reality for anyone here.

What if this person IS your twin flame, but still, it wasn't meant to become romantic in the 3D? What if you were meant to have that kind of happy relationship with someone else? And what if this was always the plan and so your twin being with another woman or man is not them ignoring their truth but simply living out the soul contract that they are destined for. There's so much hatred and resentment projected (mostly) at the DM's and their "karmic partners". But what if they are genuinely meant to share their life together? Many DF's have moved onto another partner. I hear them often call their new partner a "soul mate". But what if DM's supposed "karmic" is a soulmate too? It sounds a little arrogant calling the DM's partner a karmic and DF's a soulmate lol. *Sigh*, it's all just labels, labels, labels. But hard to explain without them! 

You have to CONSCIOUSLY choose your perspective when it comes to your connection and your love life. Fantasy is like a drug, it can get you high temporarily, but it will bring you crashing down again in the deepest of pain. Don't get addicted to the highs and lows and tell yourself it's just part of the journey into some idealised 3D union which is no reflection of the true soul union we are meant to see underneath these illusions. You will soon get bored of the drama. This is when you will truly honour and appreciate grounded harmony, peace and forthrightness that someone else may be able to offer you. What once seemed "dull" (emotionally AVAILABLE men / women) are now revered as mature, respectful and truly fulfilling. Your inner child that once subconsciously sought out the exciting drama and fantasy with the unavailable "twin" (as it tried to heal emotional unavailability it experienced from parents) has now healed and grown up. You've matured and become grounded within yourself to align with a grounded relationship. Many of you have now aligned with and manifested this. For some it *may* be with the "twin" but for many it is with some one new. For others, this is a possible future for you IF you allow it. 

For many of you the highs and lows became too much. Those waves crashed down your once-rigid tower. The love is still there for this person, but your ego died along with the illusions. You matured. 
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But for others they are still holding on and that is okay because we all go through it in our own time. But again, you have a choice. You can keep holding on, slogging away, feeling frustrated, taking it personally, always waiting for the future, feeling lost, living in the uneasiness of feeling like something's just on the verge of completion then realising you're nowhere near. Do you keep watching twin flame YouTube readings and just feel this overall "Meh" feeling about it all, like it's so exhausting, boring, stagnating? You can keep going in that circle. But what's that circle trying to tell you? Why do you keep going in circles? What aren't you learning, what aren't you understanding? The lesson is what keeps you stuck in that inertia, circling this time and time again. You think that a fantasy union is what's going to get you off the merry-go-round of frustration and pain, but it's not. So you keep going round and round, again and again. 

So how do you get off? By letting go of the idea of being with this person. And at first it feels so painful and so incredibly scary. But why?? What are those fears? What are they showing you? Why do you feel that you NEED this union, this other person? And don't say, "Because they are my twin flame, d'oh!" They are NOT your other "half". You're not incomplete without them. Twin flames are meant to be all about the philosophy of Oneness and non-separation. And yet, to say they are split and believe we must come into union is the separation illusion in one of it's greatest expressions!! 

IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION. You're already one with your soul, your twin. You don't need the plane of illusion (the 3D) to come together as proof of "union" or "oneness". The whole point of this 3D Earth plane is that it's an illusion, so why would coming together in the plane of illusion be proof of oneness? The whole point is to see beyond that illusion. So don't go thinking you've failed and because you're not together in the 3D you missed out on union! It's almost as if the universe prevents a physical union just to make you stop focusing on the plane of illusion to realise the truth that you're always as one in the reality of your soul. Many of you, through surrendering the 3D illusions (expectations, fantasies) have truly come to realise that your bond really is unbreakable, because even when you've let that go, you still feel the oneness with them. 
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Some of you may be at a crossroads right now. But I urge you to be truly honest with yourself. A part of you might be feeling the call to truly surrender this, but your ego may be holding on. That's okay. I'm not judging. I've been there of course. It can feel extremely scary to let go. But to be honest, what are you really letting go of? Was there really anything 3D tangible truly happening with you and your twin anyway? For me and my "twin" we were never together in 3D, we never even kissed or anything like that. For almost a decade our connection has been mostly telepathic and online. For me, letting go was just releasing a dream that one day we would be together "properly". But for that whole decade we never were together "properly" lol in that 3D sense. So nothing's changed in that sense of letting go. We never had that and I now just accept we will never have that. But the connection is just the same as ever - the bond, the telepathy, the online contact (with a different focus now, mostly on celebrating the connection in the present moment rather than "working towards" a romantic relationship). All that's gone is a dream, a set of thoughts, a perspective. The subconscious feels so much pain in letting that go at first because the subconscious does not understand what is real and what is just a set of thoughts on repeat. It thinks you're losing something real, but you're just losing the thoughts. The realness of the connection has not changed at all. Just certain thoughts and the focus on romance have been dropped. 

I hope my update has given you some food for thought. I hope it can help set you free of all resistance so you can allow the universe to deliver your highest good in the best way for you. If you are struggling to truly surrender and simply allow the universe to align you with what's best for you, then I really feel my guided meditation "I Believe, I Receive: Removing Blocks to Receive Love" will really help you. In this meditation I gently guide you to understand how the universe is trying to help you release resistance and guide you in the right direction to align with your deepest love and fulfilment. When you truly let go and look back at your own resistance and see the wonderful shifts that have occurred you will really see how for so long you'd simply been getting in your own way! Step aside and let the universe take you to where you're meant to be! If you're interested then please purchase for $11.11 USD below for an instant download. 

Love and Light to you of your continued journey,

​Karen x

Twin flames, set yourself free. Your pain is from your attachment. It's been said a million times but it is the most simple truth and once we accomplish it we truly experience such utter liberation. Don't you want to feel that way? To have this huge weight lifted from your shoulders? Allowing yourself to rise, to breathe, to expand? Aren't you exhausted from holding on, from hearing the clock ticking, but continuing to go round and round in circles just like the minute hand on your watch? 

It's not a sin to let it go. I'll say that again. It's not a sin to let it go. Don't let other's in the community bully you into staying in a karmic loop of self-sacrificing martyrdom. If you're feeling exhausted from the stagnation then it's a clear sign you must move forward. Many of you are being called to do it and if you don't, then the universe will need to step in and create a tower moment, something desperately shocking to crumble the faulty foundations you have been clinging onto (trying to avoid pain and "rejection" at all costs). 

But the means by which the demolition of your limiting comfort zone came to fruition is a blessing in disguise, a get out of jail free card. For some of you your twin was the one whom has gifted you with that escape clause, not that you escape the connection, but you can finally escape all the pain associated with it, by GOING THROUGH IT rather than holding on so tightly to try and avoid it. Some of you felt too "guilty" letting go so something happened to force your hand. And now you're grateful for it. 

Many of you went through this letting go some time ago and are feeling much more "lighter" and freer. Although you will always love your twin and the love hasn't changed, you do feel such a huge sigh of relief because you have finally, TRULY accepted that this isn't about trying to steer things in a romantic direction to subconsciously avoid feeling rejected. You're happy to be rid of all the pressures, frustrations and insecurities you felt a few months ago when you were still holding on for all those years. 

Yet, "Let it go" are such simple words that are far easier said than done. I honestly believe that most people can only accomplish it when they've been pissed off or hurt enough to realise they deserve much more. THAT stops the martyr compulsion in it's tracks. For so long it was about us trying to prove ourselves to this person that we were worthy of their love so we could have it reciprocated from them in return, but then something happened that made us finally stop and say, "Hang on a minute, is this person even worthy of ME?" As a twin flame they are worthy of course, but their actions may not be worthy. But I don't even think it's "their fault" because in the bigger picture, in most cases, the truth is simply this: It's just not meant to work out in that way and therefore it hasn't. Is it their "fault" that they cannot force the soul contract to be different? Is it their fault they were contracted into your life to be your soul brother / sister to help you heal, likely through times of pain? And it's not all one-sided, they get hurt by you too. 

For me, I've FINALLY reached unconditional love for my twin flame. I don't feel pissed off or hurt or painful longing. I let go of the fantasy of a perfect romance, or any kind of "romance" in a traditional sense. I let go of blaming him for everything. All that bullshit crumbled and he was the one to HELP me get here (yes through pain and disappointment). That doesn't mean he's a bad person, because he isn't. He's been the one to stand by me and sacrifice so much just to help me learn my biggest life lesson: to know my worth, to stop chasing love outside of myself. I'd been stuck in that cycle with many men throughout my life. My twin is the one who's finally helped me stop that karmic cycle in it's tracks. And he's still standing right by my side, even when I've ghosted him and the whole community these past few months. 

You may think this is all disappointing because our connection hasn't transpired into a romantic fairy tale ending and that I've drawn a line under holding out for that, but the sense of peace you reach in letting all that go is much better than a romance built upon weak foundations of insecurity i.e. looking outside of self to the other to complete us and fill in our voids. That's a guarantee for happily NEVER after, never having TRUE peace or healing or love when we've not even reached self-love. Once you learn the lesson from your twin flame, the romantic fantasy spell is broken. And it's NOT a disappointment if you're truly at this point in your healing evolution. You are FREE to finally, TRULY love your twin in the intended way, unconditionally. So much bullshit wounding and longing and desperation used to cloud this love. Now that's gone. What's left? Love. Peace. Gratitude. Freedom. Wanting the other to be happy even if it doesn't involve you. I wept tears of utter ecstasy yesterday as I connected with the pure love I feel for my twin without the old bullshit tainting it. 

My twin has had a lot to learn from recent events too. But I hate to think of him getting stuck on blaming himself and beating himself up. You didn't fuck up. You helped me, your soul chose to love me so much that you would sacrifice and risk looking bad in my eyes just to help me finally put aside my karmic cycle that has likely been going on for many, many lifetimes. I recognise how much you love me in that your soul would do this for me, even if you think I am just being too kind. 

So to all of you, set yourself free from the anguish of holding on, whether you are divine masculine or feminine. It's the attachment that creates your pain. Holding on is trying to avoid that pain of letting go of the comfort and safety of the dream, but it's lengthening the time that your fears linger in the background. Letting go is to face those fears. To accept a life without your twin in a certain way. My meditation here will help you do this. Many of us are simply putting off the inevitable - the need to accept that on this Earth it's just not meant to pan out in that way. But it doesn't matter, the connection will remain, the bond is as strong as ever. You will be closer in other realms and always are. It doesn't mean it's goodbye, it's just about accepting it for what it is right now. 

I may not understand the exact reasons why our circumstances must be the way that they are, but I now accept them, I know it's not down to my twin or his fault or mine. I know it's just meant to be this way for some mysterious reason that only higher powers know. I know our bond never dies, only the illusions, resentments, attachments that cloud it die. The power of love burns through them all eventually. This is the ending of separation - the dissolving of all illusion that clouds us from seeing and being the oneness of Love. 

So what happened to me when I let my twin go (let go of any romantic stuff happening)? Under very strange and synchronous circumstances I met a new man. I wasn't looking, wasn't expecting it at all. I've had previous relationships where things worked well on the surface but they never understood my spirituality and therefore I felt invisible. I held onto my twin for so long because I felt incredibly understood on a spiritual level and yet a physical relationship was simply not getting off the ground at all. In these past few months I accepted I was "fucked" when it came to love, that I couldn't have both - a good physical/tangible relationship AND feel understood spiritually by a partner. I'd been holding out for my twin to transition into the physical/tangible relationship so I could have both. But it just wasn't happening lol. 

So this new guy I met was looking for his special lady. He'd also come to accept that he would just have to "settle" for someone who wouldn't understand him on a spiritual level. When we met, neither of us consciously knew the other was spiritual. But then we started talking and we were both in shock at how uncannily similar our outlook on life and spirituality is. It's like we've lived a mirror life and he even used to live in the same apartments that I currently live in even though now he lives in a totally different town. Many minute details were exactly the same. We felt we knew each other from another life. He talked about all these spiritual things very openly which is what I'd always wanted from a partner. I told him that he is a divine masculine embodied. He'd even had a very toxic karmic relationship a few years back where the woman had been into dark magic and was a narcissist, like many dm's experience. A few weeks after knowing each other he saw a school photo of me and recognised me in it. Turns out we'd attended the same primary (elementary) school and I was the girl he'd always had a crush on when we were really little.

All the things I used to say to my twin flame about him being too guarded, this new guy started saying to me, because I WAS guarded at the start. It made me realise how me and my twin were so similar and I hadn't fully seen it before. This new guy was saying everything I'd been saying. It made me chuckle. 

My point is, I didn't trust the universe. Like I said, I just assumed I was "fucked" when it came to love and couldn't have the spiritual and the physical combined. I'd tried so hard to manifest these things with my twin flame and when I eventually "gave up", BAM! what I'd been asking for all along, these exact qualities I'd been wanting for so long, were suddenly on my doorstep in the form of a different man. I then knew that this whole time, this meeting with the new man must have been manifesting behind the scenes for a long time. But I'd been looking in the wrong direction for so long, towards my twin. But a bigger part of me knows my twin experience prepared me for this new person. In letting go of twinny, I opened myself up to truly receive. Is this new guy the man of my dreams? Who knows lol, I'm not gunna put restricting labels on it this time. I know all relationships will be about learning certain lessons. Could even possibly be karmic. We'll see. But I definitely see this man encompasses all the qualities I'd been holding out for for so long and thinking the universe wasn't going to deliver. 

So let it go, whatever you're rigidly holding onto. But I get it, some of us (if not most) need a little prompting from the universe (to say the least!) before we actually do it. Trust the universe (like I didn't!) Whatever is right for you WILL show up at the right time. 

If you're struggling to let go in order to truly find your peace and open yourself up to receive that which is right for you or whom is right for you in this present moment, then I really feel my meditation "Fearless Faith: I Am Safe To Trust" will help you. In this meditation I gently guide you through facing your biggest fears of union not happening and help you release the fears that keep you stuck in stagnation so you can open yourself up to receiving your highest good either through twin flame union or whatever is in store in your soul contract to align you with joy, love and happiness. Many clients have reached out to thank me for the profound shifts they have experienced after listening to it. Check it out below.

Love and Light to you on your continued journey!

Karen x

Hey! I hope you are all doing really well. Welcome back to another twin flame energy update. I've got a few things to talk about that are very profound and can really help you understand this whole twin flame experience a little better. 

Once again, I am going to be turning a few of the twin flame "rules" or supposed "truths" on their head. For many twin flames, now is the time when they are ready to get real and see beyond the illusions that blocked us for so long. These self-delusions are crumbling so fast and it's freeing us from the stagnation that seemed to endure for a very long time in the past. What I have to divulge will likely trigger some of you, but in no way am I intending to blame the DF; I am merely attempting to bring subconscious patterns to the surface for recognition and subsequent shifts for the highest good of all.

I'm going to talk about some insights that carry on from my last energy report about the hidden masks both twins wear and how they reflect the inner fears that they both have surrounding the connection. For such a long time many divine feminine's were totally blind to their own masks; all they could see were the divine masculine's masks. It really is such an illusion to believe it's only the DM who has things to heal and had got stuck in resistance. It goes both ways. Both twins have fears about being vulnerable and truly seen by the other. But it's such a powerful time right now because the DF's are being honest with themselves and can see these inner blocks in order to release them. 

I can see now that for this whole time I was waiting for my twin flame to become real, to come out from behind his mask before I was fully willing to be authentic and vulnerable with him in return. I had no idea that I was also wearing a mask to try and protect myself as I waited for him to release his fears. Of course, he was doing the exact same thing! He was waiting for me to be my true self before he could feel comfortable opening his heart. Both of us were holding back and waiting for the other to go first before we could allow ourselves to fully trust in the other, trust in the love and the connection. We were both stuck in a Mexican standoff, observing the other through the eye holes of our own masks, wondering when the other was going to start being real and initiate the process of authenticity so we could move forward together. 

According to Wikipedia,

A Mexican standoff is a confrontation in which no strategy exists that allows any party to achieve victory. As a result, all participants need to maintain the strategic tension, which remains unresolved until some outside event makes it possible to resolve it.

This is certainly what happened between my twin and I. My twin flame was the one to go first and speak his truth, for which, I am very grateful. This caused a tower moment that was designed to shake and wake us up. Neither of us had been willing to let down our guard for so long so we were forced into it. I had no idea just how much of a mask I was wearing until that tower moment struck and completely demolished it. I guess, for that whole time that I had been wearing it, a part of me didn't fully believe in the twin flame thing or the mirror effect so I thought I could just "get away with" wearing my mask and just wait for my twin to become real first. My ego was telling me that these universal laws of mirroring didn't apply to me so I was technically trying to trick or shortcut the universe out of doing my work - "Oh it's probably just some new age mumbo jumbo talk." It's funny how we can have many layers existing within us at the same time; part of us believing, part of us not. 

I look back and I realise that I was in a profound state of denial about my own healing needs because I had resistance because it's scary and messy to go inwards. I felt safer just pretending to myself and to my twin that it was mostly just him who needed to heal. I was afraid of having responsibility for the state of our connection and union, so I subconsciously shirked my healing needs and placed the weight of that upon his shoulders instead. I feel that many divine feminine's do this subconsciously from a place of fear. I have come to the conclusion that for myself, my fear of taking responsibility for my side of the union resided in a belief that I'd fail at the task. My mask helped me to blind myself from this insecurity and just wait for my twin to sort everything out instead.

Many feminine twins become preoccupied with focusing on what the divine masculine needs to heal as a subconscious way to avoid the pain of looking inwards and feeling overwhelmed with the array of wounds lurking within our own shadows. When we make the divine masculine solely responsible for the outcome of the union, then a part of us believes that we can avoid feeling like we ourselves could potentially fuck up. Forcing the masculine the bare the weight of this unrealistic expectation is the very thing that overwhelms them because they literally cannot do it all by themselves. DF's are very good at making it appear that we are ahead of the game to further support this delusion. The TF community is rife with such condescension of the masculine. As divine feminine's, many of us have built ourselves up and it's all down to the ego, whilst we claim it's solely the DM stuck in ego. But in truth we are equals, mirrors; it cannot be any other way for we are One.

We're all learning to feel our way out of the darkness of illusion into the light of truth. We look outside of ourselves and see the stubbornness of the masculine whilst resisting the truth of our own. We think it's the masculine who lets us down, but we equally let them down too. Then we wonder why things aren't moving forward, or appear to go backwards. It appears on the surface that the masculine is the one running away from his healing by distracting himself in the 3D in certain ways, but it is a reflection of how we too are also running away from our own healing and simply pointing the finger at him. We kid ourselves that we are being very spiritual and are more enlightened for we talk a lot about healing and may even meditate and perform certain healing modalities on ourselves, and many times I have heard readers talking about sending the DM healing energy, when really we need to be focusing on our own healing. But there is often still a level of resistance and delusion towards our own healing because we subconsciously do not know how to heal the deepest wounds, or we may not even know what our wounds are at the time. Much of this is done subconsciously, so in that sense it is not our fault. But in understanding our own blindness, can we not also be understanding of the DM's lack of inner knowing at times?

For our ego it's easy to blame the DM for the ways in which his soul uses his 3D self to trigger us to finally wake up. It's easy to point the finger at the other and say "they fucked up" so we can continue to let our ego protect us from the pain of looking honestly at ourselves and the equal part we play in the connection and what's transpiring. How convenient it is for us to delude ourselves in this way to continue to avoid taking responsibility of going inwards. (BTW, I am not blaming the DF! We are equal, equally accountable for everything, whether we like it or not).

No wonder the DM's have felt insecure that they do not have enough to offer the DF, because with such unrealistic expectations placed upon him, he knows he cannot fulfil this delusion to be the one to bare the weight of the whole connection. Again, it appears on the surface that it's the divine feminine doing all the work in the connection, but in truth, many have simply put on a subconscious masquerade of being "the perfect DF", i.e. mothering the DM etc etc, because "we are more enlightened and therefore must help him grow up." whilst conveniently bypassing our own needs for healing. (Again, there's all different levels to this and it's not so black and white, but I think you understand my over all meaning.) It really has been such a disservice to the masculine for many DF's to have painted them out the be the villain. (Not saying DF's are the villain either. Both have room for improvement!)

So, when it came to my twin flame and myself, we'd both got too comfortable talking to each other through a wall. We spent years trying to feel each other out in this guarded way. "Who is he / she really?" we'd be asking ourselves. (The whole time I thought that was just me asking that about him.) I knew he had trust issues surrounding me but I didn't really understand that it was because I was wearing a mask. "Will his / her fears / mask cause them to hurt me? Cause them to run? Cause them to invalidate the connection and make me feel rejected? He / she is obviously in some kind of denial of the truth about everything right now, so I am not safe to be true and vulnerable because the other isn't willing to be true and vulnerable at this time. Therefore they will reject me in my truth and our truth." 

There was no stability in this falseness of our masks, no true grounding. Both could see the other's fear and thought the other's insecurity may shake the foundations so much so that it would possibly cause everything to completely crumble if one was to step forward before the other was ready. It also felt like a rejection to us both when we felt the other didn't trust us enough to be their true and authentic selves. Such trust issues create a gap between the two and so on a deep level it felt like the other was abandoning us.  

So much fear is triggered in these connections and a very important download came to me about this. And it's all to do with the law of opposites, or polarity as some people call it. What spirit showed me is that in these twin flame connections, if we desire to experience the deepest love, we must also embrace the biggest fears. Relationships with little fear can often mean there's little love involved (not always, but often it's the case). If there's little love for our partner then we aren't fearful of losing them, or about what they think of us (hence one of the reasons why some twins get into karmic relationships because there's no real fear of loss or separation triggered in those connections).  But there will always be great fear stirred up where there is great love. On this 3D planet, where we are conditioned to believe in separation, when we are faced with the deepest possibility of Oneness in the twin flame union, then we also become acutely aware of this fear of separation just as equally; that we may be separated from our beloved through some kind of rejection. 

So what is this fear exactly, that comes up from experiencing the deepest love with our twin flame? The fear is a belief that we need something and that we won't receive the very thing we think we need. It can also be that we fear that the thing we believe we need will be taken away from us. So within these connections, these fears are often about believing we need to be with our twin flame, that we need their love and approval, that they are the one's to prove our worth to us.  When we have these false beliefs to do with looking outside of ourselves for validation and wholeness, then we become extremely anxious that we either won't receive what we perceive to need from our twin, or that if we do receive it then later on it will be taken away from us.

What's come up through these recent tower moments and awakening, is the awareness of, "Do I really need these things to be happy?" For when we realise that we don't need them to be happy and that happiness comes from within and we actually do the work to make that inner joy a reality, then we release the fear that kept us stuck and stagnant for so long, that kept our hearts shielded. And then a curious thing happens; when we no longer need someone outside of ourselves to make us happy and we have become self-reliant in fulfilling our own core needs in this way, our neediness disappears, the delusions where we place these needs all upon the other's shoulders fall away. We have therefore taken the unrealistic burdens off of the other's shoulders and they are liberated and they no longer feel burdened by the doubt that they "aren't enough" for the DF. She has finally taken care of her own needs, which are her needs to take care of. He can then see that she isn't a bottomless pit of insecurities that she's looking to him to fill in for her. She is now in a place of being realistic. The DM must do the same. He cannot place his worth on how she relates to him, his happiness and security on her being there for him in the 3D and validating him in certain ways. 

When we seek the comfort of the ego mask and the walls it creates around ourselves in order to hide from or repress our fears and the pain it causes, we are equally hiding from love. When we grab onto a false sense of certainty, either through wearing masks to keep a sense of control, by living in a fantasy where we're always safe, or by getting into another relationship where our fears aren't triggered so we don't feel off centre, we block the powerful flow of real love. We are trying to contain something that cannot be contained. When we try to suffocate the fears we also suffocate the love.  

If we want the deepest love, we must also be willing to face the deepest fear, or live a sedated life, a safe life, with the colours and vibrancy turned down, dull. Our souls become restless in such scenarios of resistance. Our souls long for Oneness, truth, to grow beyond the 3D laws of polarity into the 5D reality of Oneness. 

A large part of the excitement of the twin flame connection is it's power to encompass the full spectrum of the polarity of love and fear, the yin and yang that is One. On this Earth plane, without one (love) there cannot be the other (fear) and vice versa. It's this contrast of the polarities that makes us feel most alive. How can we experience and appreciate the deepest of love and oneness if we are not simultaneously made aware of the opposite, the fear of separation from it? The polarity heightens it all and for many it's very overwhelming to begin with when there is a lack of faith in the connection or a belief that validation must come from the other. The fear is so intense it can really trick us into believing it's a life or death situation whether we get that validation from our twin or not. 

But the truth is, our twin flame connection is supposed to bring up all of these fears to show us the ways in which we are still blinded by the illusion of separation, blinded by trying to feel inner joy by looking for it outwardly. The very depth of the love we feel rouses the equal amount of fear due to the law of polarity. This is what brings our illusions into the light of awareness so we can transcend the separation illusion and ascend into the higher realms of Oneness, bringing it back down and living it in the 3D.  

When we don't realise that it's not only normal, but intended for us to feel such deep fear in our twin flame connection; to feel insecure, off balance, scared and doubtful, then our mind can begin to doubt the connection's validity altogether. This can lead us to believe that because there are many obstacles in overcoming these fears in the connection then there must be something wrong with this connection, that it's not real love. But the whole point of relationships, and especially the twin flame connection, is to challenge us to become more of our true selves. 

On a collective scale, the majority of people believe that love relationships should be blissful all the time. Deep down we know that relationships take work, but secretly we believe they shouldn't be difficult or full of challenges. But this is how our soul grows. This is not the bog standard cookie cutter type relationship that's deemed "normal" by a sleeping society. We are here to transcend those limiting moulds.

I mean, how many of you have gone to your friends for advice about your twin flame (not a good idea!) for them to tell you that maybe you should give up on this "unhealthy" relationship and instead try and date someone else where you can have the bog standard setup? They equate a healthy relationship to fit the mould of everything running smoothly as you graduate through certain checkpoints, moving in together, getting married, having kids, watching TV every evening after coming home from the rat race etc etc. Now, all of these things are fine and maybe even desirable even for twin flames, but, these friends don't have the ability to see that your connection is SO MUCH MORE than just these bog standard aspects. But it becomes clear that as a whole, society expects a healthy relationship to look very different from your twin flame connection. (I am not advocating putting up with abuse or unhealthy situations. I am merely saying that what other's might see as unhealthy in your connection can literally be the triggers that help both the twin's grow on such a deep soul level).  

In truth, you will face your greatest challenges for soul growth within your greatest love connections. And these often encompass our deepest fears and learning to overcome them, for your twin flame has the potential to bring you to the heights of deepest joy and the depths of pain. And they will. That is why the twin flame connection is the most coveted of all experiences. And also why it's the most challenging. 

Yes these connections are meant to be beautiful and full of joy, but we need to be realistic and know that any kind of love relationship has it's other side of the story, the polarity. The more connected you are, the more your fears are going to be triggered to the surface. And when this happens your ego is going to step in and tell you things like, "I'm not good enough. He's / she's going to reject me." and we begin to really believe this inner panic as absolute truth as we spiral into painful and destructive feelings such as doubt, fear, rejection, confusion, anger and pain. In such times it's sometimes a real challenge to keep our hearts open and allow ourselves to remain authentic and vulnerable. The ego wants to protect us and that's when a mask comes up, a wall. We start believing we must become someone different to our true selves in order to be worthy.

This is what was happening for many twin flames for a very long time. It was unconscious. It caused running on both sides. But now, with the clarity that the tower moment has brought, we are at a time in our evolution where we can become more conscious when these fears comes up. We can actually know that we have a choice. We can choose to listen to these ego fears and believe them to be reality, causing us to doubt ourselves, our twin flame and the connection and feeling overwhelmed with discomfort. Or we can choose to see that these deep fears are simply the indication of how deeply we love our twin flame. 

Because we feel most vulnerable and open with our twin flame, we can become easily engulfed by the fears. But this isn't the result of there being something wrong (unless it's an abusive connection), in fact it's the indication of the depth of love you feel, and being in 3D, the equal amount of the polarity you experience with that as fear. 

Our second choice is to choose love over the fear. To understand that fear is going to come up but it's only an indication that we are intensely anxious that our needs aren't going to be met. But again, that's when we need to realise that we must meet our own needs. Whenever a fear comes up ask yourself what you think you are needing. Ask yourself, "Do I really need that (from this other person)?" Whatever the need is, know that you can give that to yourself and that you must give that to yourself first and foremost, otherwise you will always feel afraid and insecure looking outside of yourself for validation. 

We must cultivate the inner knowing that we are not less than or inadequate, that we cannot be crushed if our twin doesn't validate us. Our self love must come from within. Remembering this truth of our soul again and again and again is the key to dissolving our fears. It allows us to remain open and to follow our heart. This is how we continue to grow and ascend. 

With this knowledge of the purpose of our connection being to bring our fears and illusions to the surface for clearing, we can stay open and aware. These connections give us the opportunity to fall down so many times in order to keep getting up again, all the while getting closer and closer to the realisation of our true self. It takes a lot of courage and commitment. True love isn't meant to be easy. It's job is to prise us away from our own limitations, comfort zones and illusions, stirring us into an even deeper sense of Love and Self.  

When we both surrender to love in this way, then we are free of the fears that held us back from union for so long. We have united with ourselves, seeing beyond the 3D illusion of separation and aligned with the 5D truth of Oneness. It takes time and it's okay to accept that along the way the fears will keep coming up at different times, you don't need to be perfect at it, and you won't be perfect, none of us are. It's all about being aware of the fears, that they just indicate some need we must strive to fulfil within ourselves. Then we are ready for union with our twin flame in the 3D. This is what they mean in law of attraction talk, when they say that needing something to manifest so badly actually prevents it from manifesting.  Release the need, then you release the fear that stifles you. 

If you would like more help on how to release these intense fears and subsequently release the blocks to union then I have created a very powerful Mediation Activation called "Fearless Faith: I AM Safe to Trust - Powerful Block Removal Activation". In this 40 minute meditation I gently guide you to understanding what you believe your biggest needs are from your twin flame and how to release them, knowing you can provide all of those needs for yourself. This helps to release the fears and the tendency to cling on too tightly to your twin and allows you to reach inner wholeness. This inner union actually allows outer union with your twin flame to flow in naturally if that is part of your shared soul contract. Releasing these intense fears and all of the anxiety is such a huge relief and is very liberating. To purchase the meditation for only $11.11 USD, please see below. 

Love and Light to you on your continued journey,

​Karen x

Welcome back to another twin flame energy update. There's a lot to cover in this one! It's all about how both twins are revealing their truth to each other by removing their masks. I am going to look into the different ways in which the DM and DF were hiding and protecting themselves and how they both tried to avoid their pain. I will examine the masks they have been wearing, why they were wearing them and how they are now beginning to remove these masks in order to make way for deeper truth and intimacy with each other. 

How the Divine Masculine was Wearing a Mask

The first download I received is all about why many twin flames run and hideout in another relationship. Why they feel this need to keep wearing a mask in this way (often a reflection of our own masks too which I will get into later). It is often the DM's who get into third party situations (but it's not always and can it sometimes be the DF that does this). But like I mentioned in the previous update, the roles are somewhat reversed right now between the divine feminine and masculine so many DF's are experiencing a deeper understanding about why the divine masculine may have done that. 

Many of the divine feminine's have felt very hurt recently and may have subsequently got stuck at a crossroads not knowing how to proceed. It was designed to make you surrender, to look even deeper inwards for self-discovery. You've been pondering your options. The pain was so intense that at one point you may have felt like jacking in the connection altogether. Except, if you're a true twin flame, at the end of the day you know you simply can't do that. You can't run away from it like that. Everything must be faced. But nonetheless, many have been pondering how to keep moving forward and whether or not it would be more aligned for you in the future to be with another partner other than your twin. Many of you have not been in a rush to jump into something but nonetheless, you are going with the flow and not closed off to that idea if it resonates with you sometime in the future. Basically, you are allowing yourself to simply "feel your way through" your life in the present moment, seeing what happens instead of holding onto rigid expectations of how you think your connection and life should unfold. Basically, you've released your grip on your twin connection and that's a very good thing because now it can unfold as it's meant to. 

But during these ponderings many downloads came through to me about why some twins "jump ship" to be with a karmic partner. I could almost see the appeal on CERTAIN LEVELS, but to me having some needs met on certain levels wouldn't seem worth the trouble if it meant consciously donning a mask just to make it work. That would be very burdensome. But the thing is, many DM's don't know how to fully trust that the twin flame connection is real and so subconsciously they test the waters elsewhere to become more clear. This, I feel, is why most DF's don't go into third party situations because they often just "know" much sooner that the connection is real and therefore they don't need to test the waters elsewhere to become clear. But there are many reasons why third party situations happen and it's very multi-faceted. 

Like I said, it is mostly the DM (mostly men) who hide out in a karmic relationship and spirit showed me it's also because the DM's actually feel their emotions much more intensely than women do. This is because most women have several avenues to express their emotions throughout their life, they can get everything off their chest and feel supported by other females in doing so. But for men, most do not have anywhere to express their emotions and so they all get bottled up to the point where they explode out of them like a volcanic eruption. This is why the TF journey intimidates the DM's so much. They don't know how to handle that explosion of emotions, especially when they've been taught to feel ashamed of being overly emotional. They've simultaneously not been taught how to handle or work through those emotions effectively so when they come up they don't know what the hell to do with them. They've been taught to repress them, hide them away and so they run and avoid their feelings and create distractions for themselves through these other relationships. 

So here are some of the downloads I received about what many twin flames feel when they decide to run into karmic connections: 

⦁ You can keep wearing your mask that makes you feel protected. Your mask allows you to hide your true emotions and also distract you from feeling them.

⦁ You feel you will be consumed by the pain, sadness, longing, disappointment of the lack of union with your twin so run because you feel you can't handle those emotions. 

⦁ Everything within the twin flame connection feels like a jumbled mess that will never get untangled and it stresses you out. You want to get away from it all and long for a simple relationship. It feels appealing on certain levels to just liberate yourself from the tangled web, the stress and constant emotional pain at the disappointment.

⦁ You feel too tired to handle the emotions on such an intense level and just want a break or a "timeout" or a safe space to go to get away from it all from time to time.

⦁ You're looking for a woman (or man) who isn't going to pressure you out of your comfort zone. 

⦁ You just want a simple relationship where you can feel carefree (because you don't really care about the outcome with a karmic so there's no stress).

⦁ Getting into a karmic relationship is like going to the cinema - you know it's not real, but you willingly suspend your sense of reality just to release stress and enjoy yourself. When things feel like too much work in the twin flame connection it can get "too much". The little charade feels like a welcome relief.

⦁ You don't understand what this twin flame connection really is and so you are testing elsewhere to become clear of what is and isn't right for you. 

⦁ You are just so tired of constantly thinking about it, worrying about the connection, feeling it's always out of reach, you just want to LIVE right now for a while even though you know deep down that your heart lies with your twin and always will.

⦁ You want to distance yourself for a while until it all just "sorts itself out" because the more effort you put into it, the more of a tangled mess it (and you) begin to feel. 

⦁ You want to get away from the constant inner voice that tells you that you're failing all the time because you're still not in union. 

⦁ You feel like you cannot control the outcome of your tf connection and so you just want to forget that anxiety and fear for a while. 

⦁ You want to distract yourself until the time is right, your twin figures it out, or the universe works it out. (Can be a form of trying to run from doing your own work).  

⦁ You are afraid of fucking up your connection by overly obsessing, doing the wrong things, not knowing what you're doing, not healing properly, putting so much pressure on yourself and feeling like you're failing all the time, so you just need a break for a while. It seems so much easier with this other person. 

⦁ This other person becomes you're coping mechanism when things get too much in your twin flame connection. 

⦁ You don't see them as someone truly important to you, especially not in the long run, because you will always be thinking of your twin at the end of the day, but it will be from this safe distance where you're not allowing yourself to get so swallowed up by stressing over the connection all the time. 

⦁ There's no pressure in wearing a mask, you can be whoever you want to be and not have to get too serious about anything real (which seems like a blessing, but eventually becomes more of a burden over time).

⦁ You can play out how you'd like to be with your twin flame but with this other person, just so you feel that on some level you have an avenue to express your love that you feel you are blocked from being able to express with your twin. You fantasise deep down about doing these things for your twin. 

⦁ You want complete physical union with your twin but it's just not happening at this time so you try to get the physical - companionship, social, sexual - needs met elsewhere, even though you'd prefer to have it all with your twin. 

⦁ You're totally unaware of the connection and therefore just living your life until you wake up more.

⦁ You try to prove to yourself that you can love another just as deeply as you love your twin flame. That way, you can experience all the love and not have to do the inner work. But it never works like that. 

⦁ You're just waiting for things to change and happen in your connection and don't want to twiddle your thumbs in the meantime. It's like you've put the cake in the oven and you're just waiting for it to rise, you keep going back to look in on it's progress before you're ready to take it out of the oven.

⦁ You're not sure it's going to work out with your twin flame and you're worried you're just letting life pass you by. Perhaps if you start living with someone else instead of stagnating and obsessing, then this new life will turn out the be how you're supposed to be living anyway. 

⦁ You're scared of putting all your eggs in one basket and being left at the end with nothing. 

⦁ It all just seems so much simpler. 

⦁ "I can't handle you blocking me out. I feel rejected." So you seek acceptance and validation elsewhere. 

⦁ You're not ready for your true twin flame because of a fear of rejection. It's safer to be with someone else where you could recover fairly easily from the breakup. 

⦁ You've got karma to settle with this person before union can occur with your twin flame. 

⦁ You've been waiting for your twin to wake up and you couldn't wait any longer so now you're triggering them into feeling abandoned to wake them up (as part of the soul contract). **This one is very important right now in explaining where the DM has been waiting for the DF to shift. I will go into this in depth very shortly in the DF section below. 

Within all these reasons (and many can apply at the same time), there will always be important lessons involved, to help them and their twin awaken more. 

Because the DF has shifted so much in recent months, surrendered, let the chips fall wherever they may so to speak, knowing her worth isn't dependent upon him etc etc many DM's have released themselves from these third party situations. As you've shifted and become stronger, more brave in facing your fears head on, they also no longer feel like they need these karmics in order to survive this tumultuous journey. They know their own strength now too. Many illusions have come crumbling down for the DF and so the DM is seeing clearly now too. 

Many of you have recently experienced or will soon experience your DM speaking his truth to you. They are no longer wanting to hide behind masks or deception. They are reaching out with truth. Both twins are becoming much more of their true selves more than ever as all this stagnant fear that we were trapped in for so long is disappearing. The DF was forced to face her biggest fears in that tower moment and so the fears did not scare her so much anymore. This is also why the DM is no longer afraid to release his own fears, illusions and masks. Both are revealing their true selves to each other and this leads me onto the next download about how the DF is also removing her masks and feeling more able to be her true self with her DM.

How the Divine Feminine was Wearing a Mask

There's a lot to be said about the divine feminine's mask. In this update I am simply going to talk about my own mask I wore around my twin that I am now in the process of shedding. I'm sure a lot of what I have to say will resonate with many of you. I am going to be super real about myself here. 

I've talked a lot already in another article about how the divine feminine tried to become the "Perfect DF" based on societal pressures of what we're expected to be as a woman. Well, I'm going to look even more deeply into this and other facets of the mask I wore to ultimately protect myself.

So let's get into it...

Both twins want union more than anything. It's a soul truth, a magnetic force beyond their control. And yet in the initial stages simultaneously on a deep ego level they are both scared shitless of union, of being truly seen and vulnerable. They may not even consciously realise just how afraid they are and think they are ready when they aren't. This was certainly the case for me as well. There was always two sides of me playing out at once, one hand pulling him closer, the other pushing him away. A part of me always loved intimidating my twin flame (the hand pushing him away) by getting him to put me on a pedestal. It made me feel powerful, safe, it created a gap between us as he placed me above himself in terms of worthiness. But deep down I felt I had to build myself up in this way because I had put HIM on a pedestal. I tried to hide my true self, feeling I was unworthy. I had a lot of self-esteem issues, mostly around my body shape and size. Insecurities, especially as he was very sporty and confident in all those ways that I wasn't. 

When he put me on that pedestal I felt in control, it built up my ego. The more intimidated he felt the more it would encourage me to be bolder, to prove just how much "better" I was at being brave, being strong, being courageous, this all maintaining the safe gap when he would feel that he couldn't live up to me (my mask). I was projecting outwardly the insecurities I secretly felt inside (and that I knew he would feel too) to try and make them just his insecurities instead, to make him feel like he was the one who was "unworthy". I would often be the one making all the moves and being really forward with him (not that that's a bad thing per se, but in this connection, I knew it overwhelmed him massively, especially as he is younger than me and I was just pretending to be way more confident than what I actually was). "Look how confident and sure of myself I am. Let me highlight to you how you feel the opposite of that!" 

But the truth is, it was all an act, a power trip, I was intoxicated by feeling more of the masculine energy coursing through my veins. It was a thrill to me to feel powerful. I'd spent my whole life trying to be that perfect girl, woman, daughter, granddaughter, girlfriend, mother, meek and mild etc and it was thrilling to now be chasing him, acting like a man, being able to take action after action and rebelling in such a way. It was liberating for me. My ego didn't want to let that go. I guess I wanted to be "powerful" like all these other men who'd left me behind in the dust in the past. I sure as hell wasn't going to go through that again, so I would BECOME that, or the perception of that. The "I don't need you" attitude - "I can do it all by myself!" And what do I end up with? Doing it "all by myself" (as an outside projection that is). 

His fears would puff me up, I'd feel flattered that I had that much of an effect on him. I dominated everything, making out I was the perfect feminine on the outside, but really my action-oriented approach allowed me to stay in the masculine energy. I was TOO much in the masculine energy and merely pretending to myself I was being very feminine, but I was just being the distorted version. I'd pretend to myself and my twin that I always knew best (even if I didn't come outright and say it) and that I was several steps ahead so I could continue to take control and feel in control. 

I chased him, I knew it would keep him away. That hurt a lot, because a deeper part of me always wanted to be with him, and I couldn't consciously see what I was doing so a part of me did feel rejected when he'd keep his distance from me. I would try and coax him closer to counteract this compulsion to push him away. I was scared my untamed ego would push him further and further away, so I would try and pull him closer and closer just as much. I tried harder and harder. I tried to force the scales to tip from fear (pushing him away) into love (allowing him closer). So I went about loving him in every way I could. I would bend over backwards trying to override this deep seated block within me which I knew was pushing him away. 

The part of me that was afraid to allow him to close felt safer having a part of him but him also being at a safe distance. I was scared of my twin flame's power to crush me so I took his power from him. Twin's often subconsciously give away their power to the other. I guess a part of me took advantage of that. I subconsciously tried to make out that he had very little power. I was afraid of him "attaining" me, that he'd chew me up then spit me out again. I had to make him invested. So I worked diligently to build up my mask, my "allure" to keep him hooked. I didn't trust our connection to last if I didn't do something to constantly earn his attention. (Neither of us trusted the longevity of the connection). 

I didn't want to be merely disposable, I didn't want to be thrown away and undervalued like I felt other's had treated me in the past. They hadn't seen anything special in me. I wanted be a rare jewel to my twin flame that no one else could emulate. I felt I had to become inaccessible, unattainable, for now, until I was sure of his love for me. If he had me too soon, I was sure he'd just throw me away. I wanted so much for him to have me, but it was the thing I was most scared of too. I felt like I had to create a barrier but also keep him close at the same time. 

I knew he was the only person to see into me so deeply. He was the only one to give a damn enough to recognise me, to become fascinated with me, obsessed. I felt his eyes on me and wanted to prove I am the best version of myself to him because no one else had ever taken the time to even give a shit and look at what I have to offer the world. So I tried to prove myself, become some "better" version of myself than what I deemed myself to be. I played a fantasy role of how I wanted to be seen. I wanted my twin to stay looking at me, noticing me, appreciating me. I had no idea that he would still do that even if I was just being myself. I simply knew there would not be another whom would care so much to see me and celebrate me, so I donned my best mask and tried to be even better, to impress him. I wanted to rise to the occasion I'd never had the opportunity of before with anyone else, but I went over the top, I put on a facade of perfection and it made me feel so validated when he would watch me from afar. I guess I went a bit power-crazy and it only left my DM feeling inadequate in comparison. 

I constantly wondered why he felt the need to wear a mask with me, why he felt like he couldn't just be himself. I really wanted him to know that I just loved him for himself and he didn't need to pretend to be anything else just to impress me. Oh the irony!

I did a lot of things to try and prove something, that as a woman I can be powerful, that as a woman I am worthy of truly being seen and heard and valued. DM recognised me in a way that let me run away with that deep desire to NOT be overlooked and undervalued simply because I'm a woman. He brought out my strengths in many ways and was the one to inspire me to start my YouTube channel and these energy updates here. I just became too intoxicated by the power I'd never felt before. It became very imbalanced and it's as if a part of my ancestral DNA of the repressed feminine was causing me to think, "Look at me, I'm a successful woman, I'm powerful, I don't need you, I'm better than you!" It's like I'd created a competition with my twin subconsciously. On the one hand I really wanted to be with him and yet my ego was fuelled by the liberation of being seen in my power by a man that I went overboard and made out I didn't need him. I see now that subconsciously I was trying to play out my wounding caused by other men leaving me in the dust and was projecting it onto my twin. He was the only man to care enough to listen to my point of view on a consistent basis! 

So there was that part of me trying to prove something, and then the other part of me that was scared I was pushing him away and DIDN'T want the "me vs. you" separation consciousness playing out. That other part of me, the part that longed for union, of true intimacy, to allow him to come closer worked equally as hard to try and make him know that he is worthy, that he is welcome to come close, that he is needed. These opposite sides of myself were both just counteracting each other and it was just a huge mess. All the while my DM was standing at the sidelines looking on at me and I was thinking he was the one who had to change! (I know it's not this black and white, both need to heal and shift, but for this part of the update I'm simply focusing on my own DF energy.)

This whole time my DM was standing there, trying to hold on and losing hope. A part of him was always waiting for me to shift. He literally couldn't come closer. He wondered if it would all just be easier with someone else. He loved me like no other but it just wasn't working. It was stagnating. I was waiting for him to change. I was blind to myself. I actually suspect I was the biggest block out of the two of us all along! LMAO

I enjoyed the chase and building that tower, I worked and worked on it diligently like the 8 of Pentacles, doing the same thing over and over. A part of me thought I was building up the certainty of our union, but another part of me was keeping the safety barriers in tact along the way. I liked being in the DM energy. It made me feel different to other women. I took pride in that, but it was all so distorted and I was just alienating myself and my twin flame. 

I refused to resign from my position and so my twin had to come in and completely bulldoze my tower and deflate me, deflate my ego, make me realise it hadn't been as fun as I thought it was at the time. I'd been denying my TRUE feminine self by trying to become this superwoman on steroids, which was secretly me trying to be the masculine energy in disguise. Yes, I could pretend to myself I was so feminine and sweet by playing this overly exaggerated "DF Template role" we're all bullshitted into believing we are supposed to become, but really it was so distorted. "I am a goddess, I am a superhuman, I am an angel - look at me, I'm sooo worthy" (to subconsciously make myself feel superior to DM, make him feel unworthy, hence keeping him at a safe distance.)
 
A deep subconscious part of me (my ego) was afraid to have him stop running. Where would my ego get it's sense of power and control if I surrendered, if I gave up the mask of being the one in charge, if I stopped dominating the whole fucking thing and let him come closer? Who would I be if I wasn't this mask? Would I just fall back to being the "unworthy" and "mediocre" me? The truth is, I was afraid to be my TRUE feminine self, to be vulnerable, to allow things to unfold naturally, to allow myself to be seen for who I really am. I had no self-esteem. Taking charge was safety to me. I could sit at the top of my ivory tower, safely locked away in my fantasy world and not have to be real. What if the real me wasn't good enough for him? What if the real me would just be completely overlooked again? What if I went back to being invisible? That part of me which was so afraid wanted to hold onto my twin's gaze forever, be the one he put on a pedestal, be the top person he could not look away from. He made me feel seen like never before, which is what my inner child desperately craved. I just never realised that all he wanted and needed from me was for me to be my true self. 

I was scared of him being in his power. I guess I was scared that if he took back his power then the spell would be broken, the game would be up, he'd see the real me and realise he didn't need me, didn't want me and he'd leave. My desperate inner child had to keep him looking up to me, see me as this out of reach fantasy that's he'd always have to work towards, investing more and more in me and our connection so he couldn't ever let go. I was scared of him having all the power and abusing that power. So a subconscious part of me felt like I had to keep him small, needing me, feeling like he could never live up to who he wanted to be with me. I wouldn't let him, I would keep doing, and doing and doing, dominating everything, the more I did, the more I felt I could keep him tethered to me. All these twin flame readings making him feel that he had to just heal some more, do more of this or that, like it was always just out of reach for the DM or that he was never living up to his true potential. I had to create an illusion to protect myself, that I was more powerful, that he was less powerful. But look who was the one powerful enough to bulldoze my bullshit? His soul literally could not stagnate in this bullshit any longer. 

So he partially ran from me and it broke down my tower, broke down my bullshit. It was harsh but definitely needed. I was taken down a peg or two, or a hundred, I became more humble, realised I didn't know everything that I liked to think I did. Someone had to crumble my bs because I certainly wasn't going to. He had to show me that I'm not in control. So what did he go and do? He made me feel abandoned. He made me face my biggest fear, the very thing I was trying to avoid at all costs. And why had he "abandoned" me? Because of who I really am? No, he got into a karmic relationship because of my masks, because of my illusions, because I was pushing him away and making him feel shit about himself, over and over and over, preventing him from stepping into his power all because *I* wanted to remain in control and safe in my ego mask and ivory tower. I wasn't willing to face my fears all by myself, I wasn't willing to be 50/50 although I claimed that was the one thing I always wanted so badly from him the whole time. It had to be forced upon me. I couldn't control that could I? 

So I realised that my sense of control was just an illusion, that my belief in my mask being the very thing to protect me from "abandonment" was false. I saw how my fears had been sabotaging everything and pushing away the very thing that the real me wanted all along. I wanted him, but I was afraid of his power over me at the same time. He is so very powerful and I see now how I denied him of that, I kept it from him due to my own fears. 

After that tower moment, I thought to myself "Who is the real me?" Certainly not the perfect version I had dreamed up for myself. I discovered that I liked the real, vulnerable me, it was liberating to be humbled, to have my tower broken down. I had to face that pain of abandonment I had tried to avoid for so fucking long. It didn't break me, it made me stronger, but in the REAL sense. I knew it didn't define my worth. Before it happened, I was so afraid that "abandonment" from my twin would mean I was worthless. He made me see that was just an illusion all along. That I am worthy. I saw the good side of my old self. The parts of me that tried so hard to be there for him, to love him, to nurture him, to be a good person. I knew that despite everything, I was a good person and worthy of love and happiness. I knew I had to give it to myself. I could now see just how codependent I was. I can't actually believe just how much I was deluding myself that whole time. 

I look back at that old mask and I feel embarrassed, I feel how obvious a charade it must have appeared to my twin, how much I was swallowed up by my ego, the sheer ridiculousness of it all. I'm not beating myself up about it because we all go through the 50 shades of ego, but I became AWARE. I woke up. The penny dropped. I changed in what felt like overnight. Boom! The mask dropped. I felt like an utter fool. 

I shifted big time. I learned to be happy by myself. That I wanted union with my twin, but didn't need it like some life or death situation. What I thought would make me feel unworthy actually helped me to see that I am worthy and always have been. This fear has been released. And then of course, twin mirrors that back to you! And he has :-) 

So I try to keep this ego compulsion at bay. I'm not perfect at it. I give my twin time and distance to take back his power that I stole from him. I now know that it's not all about me and what I need or want. And it's all such a huge relief to drop all of that bullshit. So to my twin flame, I'm sorry I screwed you over for so long then blamed you for it. I'm sorry I made you into my personal fan club, putting myself on the stage and placing you in the crowd and making out you didn't have VIP access. 

This is where I'm currently at. I hope it's really resonated with some of you. If you would like in depth guidance into how to remove your own hidden masks then I have created a 1 hour video lesson all about this for just USD $11.11. It's really powerful! See below.

Love to you on your continued journey,

Karen x

Hey everyone, I hope you are doing well. Welcome to another twin flame energy update. As you know, I now wait until downloads come through before coming back to you with another report because I felt like when I used to do all the tarot readings they were a distraction from having the time and space to allow deeper messages to come through when the time is right. I definitely feel it helps myself and my twin to connect much deeper with our intuition and really knowing what's going on when we have more time to go inwards. Don't get me wrong, I still love the tarot, but I feel those readings became more of a hinderance for myself and my twin when I was doing so many of them. It was like I was trying to give him all the answers and yet, in many ways I could not see the wood for the trees myself when I was focussing too much on the "surface level" of what cards came out. My twin was looking to me in many ways to see "what was happening next" and although it's fine to tap into these updates for guidance sometimes, if it's too frequent it can distract us all from finding the guidance within on a much deeper level. 

Many people have reported back to me that my updates over the previous few months have been on fire and I also agree they have been much deeper and insightful and hopefully much more helpful to you as well. These updates are current energies, they are not set in stone as things are constantly shifting, evolving and deepening. As always, take what resonates and leave the rest. They are designed to help you look deeper inwards and ask youself some questions about what feels right for you. I hope that what I relay can spark some subconscious truths within you and bring then up to the surface to help you make sense of things. 

In todays update I am going to be discussing the divine feminine and masculine's current energies, what they are feeling and experiencing and what shifts have and are occurring collectively. 

So I'm going to start with looking into the divine masculine's energies despite the title being about the divine feminine's being stuck in the Two of Swords energy. Looking into the DM first will help to explain that part about the divine feminines because it's almost as if the roles have been thrown into reverse right now. 

Current Energies

I have been seeing images of a set of strings connecting the DM and DF representing the energies between them. In the past, the DF kept waiting for the DM and trying to get closer to him. So as she stepped towards him the strings were no longer taut, they were "floppy" and limp (remember we're talking about strings!) The strings between them were falling about this way and that, back and forth, wish-washy, maybe even getting tangled. This represents how you were both stagnating in the connection, there was no sense of direction or forward movement in many ways. For some of you the masculine ran in the opposite direction, pulling the strings that way and you allowed yourself to be pulled along behind them. 

Many DF's were waiting for the DM to take the lead whilst the whole time it's the DF who is the leader! Granted, some DF's HAVE always known their energy is "the leader" but mistkenly thought that meant trying to steer the connection and control things. But no, the DF is only the leader when she continues to move forwards in the direction of her soul truth, of her divine feminine power, meaning that she must release fear and codependency and continue on her journey with or without the masculine. Many DF's have now moved into their divine feminine power and are no longer waiting, stagnation or overgiving and instead are following their divine guidance and direction forwards, going in the direction of their spiritual path. That is causing those strings between you to be pulled tight, taut, in line, and have clear direction, pulling the DM in that direction towards truth too. Basically, whomever, whether DM or DF, walk in the direction of spiritual truth and release fear and codependency in the process, is the energy who's more magnetic and "pulls the other" in that direction too. In the past, all the waiting and stagnating just made things go nowhere except in circles, or those "strings" just got all tangled and muddled. 

The old dynamic between DM and DF was causing DM to be stuck in a place of confusion. The DF's mothering attitude towards the DM was over-watering the plant so to speak and it all became limp and lifeless. When DF tried to do everything to make it work, it kept her in fear and not being her true self and that translated to DM being stuck in the same energy. It was not creating the magnetic attraction of the polar opposites of DF and DM because many DF's were acting more like the DM energy and it was pushing DM into the DF energy. Giving and receiving had become all out of whack, imbalanced and reversed in many ways. 

But now the DF is in her true divine feminine essence she is open to receiving rather than being the one giving all the time. The DM's strings have been pulled tight and he sees things more clearly, is no longer wishy-washy, he's been forced into his divine masculine energy of taking action. They are changing many things in their lives for the better. Their fears are dissolving with the clarity and they are releasing many things that are not serving that they once felt so tethered to. Their energies have now shifted into a much higher vibration and it's made it much easier for them to cut those ties. 

I've also been recieving images of DM's energies like a wet cloth be wrung out. To me this represents the sheer significance of the purging that the masculine is going through. The transition is painful and causing great anxiety in many ways, but most of the divine masculine's are greatful for this releasing of the old and are welcoming it, no matter how uncomfortable it is. They know it's for the best as they see things very clearly now. I feel a lot of anger coming from them, directed at karmic situations, themselves and maybe even at the divine feminine if she's gone quiet. But many divine feminine's are being guided to give the masculine time and space right now for them both to fully adjust to the new timelines they are now in. 

Both are feeling very relieved to be free of the heavy burdens of illusion. If the divivne masculine did something that catalysed this huge shift, which at first seemed to be "negative" then many divine feminine's felt like it gave her "permission" to stop the pattern of over-giving and burning herself out. Many DF's would have felt too guilty just suddenly pulling back so much out of nowhere. DF's are scared of being seen as "the bad guy" but unfortunately something had to give so DM appeared to be the bad guy instead. But many feminine's are now coming to understand the DM's actions all the more right now because the energies are reversed somewhat. I'll get more into this in a bit. 

Both the DM and DF are graduating the wounded child template and are emerging as the "adults" or awakened aspects of their nature, taking responsibility for their own healing and wellbeing. This is one of the reasons why the DF is no longer looking to the DM to spill her guts on all the time. Partly that was the wounded inner child wanting to feel heard. Many DM's are actually missing that in a way and are worrying that it's because the DF no longer cares that's she's stopped talking to him so much but that is not the case at all. Spirit is really guiding her to hold her tongue right now. 

Collectively, the DF's are now the ones stuck at a "Two of Swords" crossroads. For soooo long that was the divine masculine. And for all of that time, most of us DF's thought it was personal, that the DM was deciding to himself whether he was truly going to make the effort or not, whether we were "worth it" in his eyes or not. That's why we were doing so much, to try and convince him that we were worth it. But the thing is, that wasn't the decision he was trying to make at all when he was stuck in that Two of Swords energy. He ALWAYS knew your worth! (It's just that we didn't believe in our own worth).

What spirit showed me is that he was so stuck at that crossroads because he was WAITING for you, waiting for union! He wanted to get closer to you, be with you, but he could not! All this time we thought all he had to do was decide to want to be with us then make it happen, but it's so much more than that! There's a lot that goes on energetically that we cannot see. In that Two of Swords moment, that was him actually holding on! DF was not ready to move into her divine self at that time, she was in a place of fear and holding on codependently, not knowing her own worth, blocking being able to receive love. She thought it was all down to him and she thought that his confusion meant he didn't love her enough yet, so she took it personally and did everything she could to become the "perfect DF". She would jump through hoops, bend over backwards, you name it! And when that didn't work (because she was seeking approval outside of self which completely defeats the object of this journey) she felt rejected, triggering her inner child abandonment wound even more so it could actually play out quicker and so she could heal it quicker. She was stuck in her wounding and hadn't graduated that yet. She was not in the energy of union because she had not found union within. So the masculine literally could not come forward because the energies were not right at that time. The fears, codependency, illusion of separation (not yet being united with our true divine selves through healing the inner child) were blocking him from being able to move towards you. 

On this journey you feel like you're orbiting or dancing around what is meant to be, what is real, what is you, and yet indeed you are partly this piece still in orbit, not yet fully merged with the Oneness at the core. You wonder, why are we dancing around this thing? Both want to merge so passionately and yet some invisible force keeps you in orbit, keeps you in cycles, wondering when it's time to land. Of course that orbit is designed to burn off all the karma as that is the invisible force, the illusion of separation, the illusion of the false-self that keeps you in that cycle until it all burns away. You keep going round and round, slowly being pulled in closer and closer to that core of Oneness. You're waiting to be sucked in, devoured by love, imploded into the  transformation of Oneness. You're waiting for the collapse of everything false to become truth. 

The divine masculine wasn't rejecting you through not coming forward, he was stuck wanting to come forward but in the back of his mind he was always thinking that it might never work out with you (because we kept going round in circles of this karmic cycle of the wounded inner child seeking his approval to feel good enough). I'm not saying it's all our fault though because sometimes the DF's need some reassurance from the DM or him to explain how he's feeling or what's happening, but they've been taught to basically not be like that. So many DM's were wondering if someone else might be better for them. They wanted union so badly with the DF, but there was always this invisible force blocking them from coming forward and it felt out of their hands to be able to remove that block. They wondered if they hung onto the connection, would they be hanging on forever just waiting? Then many DF's started pushing even harder for them to come forward, still under the illusion that all he had to do was take action and make it happen, then taking it as a rejection when he wasn't (couldn't) do that. As she pushed harded, energetically it pushed him back further. The energies were not right, it was a fear based longing to look outside of self for wholeness. So in that moment it exaggerated the DM's doubts that union could ever happen because her blocks were being exaggerated the more she pushed for things to happen. That's when he lost a lot of hope. He thought she was never going to change, never going to heal her codependency, and he feared that union would never happen. But also, there was still karma DM had to heal with others, so it all amalgamated at the same time to create that huge tower moment! Boom!

When she pushed him, it pushed him away, or he ran. That pissed her off big time, hurt her, made her want to retreat to protect her heart but this is what gave them both the space they needed to look into self to heal and really ask themselves, "Are we really going about things the right way?" Clearly not at that time. It was a time to re-evaluate our actions. 

She needed to start living in the now with no more looking to him codenpendently. When she shifted, so did he. The energies changed, became more in line with self-union so union with each other becomes more possible. The DM was unsure for so long if he was meant to keep holding on or be with a karmic partner instead. He wondered why things were so complicated with the DF. Surely, if another relationship is "easier" then that's the direction he should go in? So he tested the waters. But he got his answer as the karmic situation blew up into a huge tower moment. He suddenly realised that the "easy option" was actually the difficult option because it meant trying to completely deny and resist his soul truth. Illusions came crumbling down. Awakening was catalysed. He got his answer once and for all. They had both wanted union for so long, to move beyond the blocks and now it's happening, but what caused this shift, the tower moment, was unexpected at the time. It needed to be something big, something shocking to really wake them both up. 

So originally, it was the DM stuck in the Two of Swords energy, wanting to move forward with DF, but literally not being able to until she shifted, until she knew her own worth and released trying to control things by focussing  more on her own life. But now this energy has reversed. It's now the DF whom is stuck at the Two of Swords crossroads. And in reverse, now it's the Divine Masculine who is feeling frustrated with the feminine, feeling a little rejected, maybe even a little angry because he thinks SHE is the one being stubborn in holding back from him and not being able to decide whether to choose him or another path. But again, it's all about the energies. Until he steps into his healed masculine energy of givine and taking action (feminine's are about recieving and being receptive), she cannot move forward with DM until he changes, until he shifts. She cannot allow him in until he faces his fears and takes action, no matter how much she may want to. It's not her being stubborn, she litterally cannot get through that block and so many DF's are now the one's wondering if DM will ever be able to change or will WE be the one's potentially waiting around forever missing out on life? We know we cannot do that. And so we are stuck for now and wondering a lot things. 

Can you see how this energy has reversed? Everything the DM went through in that Two of Swords is now what she's going through. Right now many DM's are looking for reassurance from the DF but the DF literally cannot give him any reassurance just as long as he is not shifting, not grounding the connection in the 3D, which again, is the job of the DM. She is not assured, so she cannot give him assurance. If it's not grounding, then what reassurance can she give him? She may want so badly to give him that reassurance that she will always be there, but she literally cannot as long as his blocks remain because she cannot stay in limbo forever. If he's not shifting, if he's doing the same things as before, making promises but there's no evidence of that unfolding in 3D, it's now pushing her away energetically and she cannot assure him of anything because nothing is for certain. This was her lesson to learn. Spirit is saying that in creating a tower moment it was the DM's higher self's way of forcing her to let go so he would be forced to step into his masculine energy. Her soul literally cannot stay in the stagnation. So there she is, stuck in the Two of Swords, holding on to the connection (like DM was in that energy) but also feeling her soul pushing her forward and wondering, how much longer can I hold on for, would it be easier with another? A lot of uncertainties came up.  

For such a long time, the DF was ungrounded and had a lot of blind faith. The DM's really did want union when they were stuck in that past energy, but their words weren't being matched by their actions. DF's are often told to simply "Believe, believe, believe - You must have faith!" But to me this seems like too much of an ungrounded 5D energy. As we come into balance now of our inner DM and DF energies, we understand that there must be a balance between the 5D and the 3D. It's good to have faith, BUT it's also important to have grounded 3D "proof" for want of a better word, i.e. things need to become grounded too in order for things to continue to unfold. Without that, the DF is feeling that things are simply too imbalanced and remaining in 5D and it feels a bit like castles in the sky. Even though many will disagree, it's now a good thing to have a balance of faith and grounded evidence that things are growing. I feel it's signifying the time where things are moving into a more grounded state, that we are now seeing the importance of witnessing things becoming a more solid foundation. 

Speaking more broadly, DF's are in the Two of Swords energy because we are feeling this need to make changes in our lives in general. Career, daily life, attitudes, self love etc etc. Many are feeling a bit stuck or uncertain about how to move forward. We keep asking the question, "What am I supposed to be doing now?" and the confusion keeps lingering. We are waiting for divine guidance to come in, but I feel it's meant to be a time of transitioning into our "new", more healed selves. 

Both twins have drastically transformed compared to six months ago. There's a totally different "feeling" surrounding your connection and it's a very good thing but can make you feel a little anxious and uncertain simply because it's so new and unknown to you both. The new is fresh and exciting if not a little scary. I keep seeing the twins standing on a stage and the backdrop has completely changed, yet the love between them is still the same. 

On a final note, many twin's are experiencing a lot of synchronicities since the tower moment. Those signs are to keep you on track, to help you have faith during difficult times. For me the syncs were bumping into my twin flame several times unexpectedly. Before the tower moment, we hadn't bumped into each other for a very long time. Then after, it happened 3 times in the space of about two weeks. Also, recently I had a significant conversation with DM about a time when I bumped into his friends. Since that discussion I have bumped into one of his friends many times and yet before that I never bumped into him ever. I know it's all a sync. Many of you will be experiencing synchronicities too and I feel some of you needed confirmation through me mentioning this. 

Literally, just as I am wrapping up this energy update there was a power cut for a few seconds! Everything went black except for my laptop screen as I'm reading this update back to myself (went to battery). Defo felt like a sign!

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Love and Light to you on your continued journey,

​Karen x

How do you reach union with your twin..? By reaching union with yourself. What does this mean? Union with self is when we embody our soul truth in human form i.e. we can see beyond our conditioning, illusions and ego created false-self to align with our divine soul consciousness - to know we are pure, innocent, lovable and perfectly divine even with our human imperfections.

Union with self is the state of embracing both our divinity and our humanness and merging them into one, embodying both aspects of the self in Love. It's the state of alchemy we reach when we are no longer controlled by the conditioning that takes us away from self-Love and Oneness with Love. The state of self-union opens up the door to union with our twin flame because as within, so without and as above, so below. 

But the crucial thing to understand is that union with self is the most important goal on this journey, more important than union with your twin flame because a) self-union leads to true wholeness and within (not the superficial kind of "wholeness" of looking outside of ourselves to our twin to fill in a void), b) we cannot achieve union with our twin until we have created union within, and c) union with self becomes the inspiration for others to do the same in order to reach their own true wholeness and dissolving bit by bit the collective paradigm of codependency. This leads us to more worldwide peace. 
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Deep down a part of us knows that we are all One, we are all connected. That's Love, the connector of all things. But on this plane of duality we have mistakenly believed we are separate from our true state of Oneness, separated from Love. We conclude that we have been separated from Love because we are unworthy of receiving it. We then believe that we must earn the right to be loved to be reconnected with it again. 

We naturally want to become whole again in feeling that we are Loved, seeking the Oneness that Love provides, searching for the Love we mistakenly believe is "missing". Most of our senses teach us to look outside of ourselves, so naturally we assume that being Loved, becoming Oneness and whole again means we must find the missing Love outside of ourselves. 

We conclude that the way to find the Love is by molding ourselves to "fit in" with those around us, to feel like an accepted member of the group or society.  We want to feel that sense of belonging and we mistakenly believe that by changing ourselves to fit in we will have "earned" the right to be Loved and feel One again. But in reality, when we go down that path we lose ourselves even more, and feel even more disconnected from Love because we have entered a period of self-judgement, comparison and lack of self-Love.

The constant pull to fit in with and be accepted by everyone becomes so intense that any slight (the tiniest, tiniest!) indication that we don't fit in with the collective can make us believe there's something wrong with us, that we are unlovable, "cut off" and "an outsider".

This fear of "being cut off" from acceptance (Love) causes us to lose sight that Love comes from within - we are  always the Love within and when we reconnect with it from within it will show up on the outside too. This illusion of being separated from Love becomes a toxic shroud engulfing us to the point where we are so afraid of outside "rejection" that we begin molding ourselves into strangers that we don't even recognize. The masks become so automatic that we forget ourselves, our true worth more and more as time goes on. "Who am I again?"  We no longer know.

So how do we get back to ourselves, to the Love that we are, the Love that we always connected with, so THEN it can show up on the outside too as a reflection of our joy and sense of worth? It's only through conscious effort to go inwards to reconnect with this truth, reunite with our true consciousness - conscious awareness of our worth and lovableness - that we can finally break down the illusions, the shroud that's robbed us of our confidence, self-love and empowerment for so long. 
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When we consciously connect with our soul truth of Love and worthiness so we can see beyond the false-identity, we reach a HUGE breakthrough! We begin ALIGNING with our true identity, our divinity, our absolute worthiness of Love. We begin to see how lovable we are and have always been no matter what we have done in life or how we've judged ourselves as being unworthy of Love. Our confidence begins returning and we liberate ourselves from the constant fear of rejection because we no longer look outside of ourselves for that false validation -  we don't need to - we now see the truth of who we really are from looking within.

We finally know how to Love ourselves and we step out of the false identity fearlessly, embracing and embodying more of our divine self which naturally loves and embraces the divine "imperfections" and UNIQUENESS of our human self. 

This huge shift into powerful self-love aligns us again with the Love vibration that we have constantly been seeking. We reunite with ourselves. This allows us to RECEIVE Love and also receive UNION with our twin flame as a reflection of the self-union now attained. 

Recently I have really begun experiencing this HUGE BREAKTHROUGH. It's really powerful! Whenever I did healing work on myself in the past I would experience some healing but it would only scratch the surface or the healing seemed very minimal. Deep down I still felt quite lost like I couldn't quite pin down the source of my wounding and feelings of unworthiness that had plagued me my whole life. I felt trapped in my wounds and fears and could not see any way out. Yes, I was making small steps along my healing path but I still felt like I was walking in the dark, not being able to see clearly the way forward. 

My twin triggered something within me, feelings of rejection, abandonment and being cut off from his Love and therefore triggering the illusion that I was cut off from God/Source Love. But it caused a chain reaction within me this time - I was finally ready to align with this most powerful breakthrough, more powerful than I have ever experienced. No longer was it just my intellectual mind that understood that I am lovable - I finally aligned with this truth on all levels and I actually BECAME the Love I have for myself, the Love that I am. I no longer saw it as a distant concept I could never quite reach, I finally aligned with it on all levels.
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I saw, felt and understood my twin flame's true unconditional Love for me also. I no longer doubted his Love - that subconscious block to union was being removed because I now fully aligned with his Love - I could feel it as truth in my whole being. I had finally merged with his Love that he had always wanted me to receive and my doubts evaporated immediately. 

I then experienced union with God/Source's and our Soul Family's Love. My twin is the earthly grounded reflection of God/Source's unconditional Love for me. My union with my twin's Love helped me reach union with God/Source's Love because the way he loves me is how God loves me - truly unconditional. I could now see it, know it and become One with that truth, opening my eyes and realigning with my divine identity.

I began consciously connecting with this Love every day. It is absolute BLISS to reunite with Love, reunite with the knowing that you are totally 100% lovable without exception and to then be able to love yourself without conditions. It is truly liberating. 

Finally, the search for Love outside of self is over because you've reunited with it within. Obviously it doesn't mean that you no longer want to be with your twin flame - not at all. It actually opens you up to receive their love, finally allowing union to flow in. By breaking through the thick crust of illusion you create room to allow union with your twin to flow in. 

I have been so blissed out with Oneness and feeling finally aligned with my Soul Family, my twin and my true self that it has become a bit of a ritual to take the time every evening to tune into this union, to keep powerfully dissolving the old conditioning and false (toxic) identity I had once been so imprisoned within.

My healing has been astronomical! - much, MUCH more rapid than ever before and I never knew I could shift so much in such a short time! People are noticing it - commenting on my confidence and state of ease which is dissolving all the anxiety! I see myself more clearly and my intuition has become even more powerful too. 
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Happy New Year! I hope you had a wonderful holiday season. I had a really nice break and am back with another update to talk about some very important issues within the twin flame community that I feel really need addressing. These issues are relating to the well meaning advice of "unconditional love" and how this is often misunderstood and misinterpreted, causing many twins to go in completely the wrong direction, keeping them stuck in karmic cycles. The karmic cycles I am referring to are the ones about not loving ourselves or being confused about what self-love and loving our twin flame means and how that keeps us stuck. 

In this article I aim to set you free from the hidden pressures that the twin flame community place upon everyone that may have caused you to feel you had to conform or abide to certain "twin flame rules" or guidelines in order to "be worthy" or "ready" for twin flame union. I feel that some of the teachings, although well intended, are actually more destructive than helpful. And yes, I know that in my own past state of confusion I would have been saying the same erroneous things. We live and learn. So if you've ever felt judged by someone in the community for being "too much in ego", felt confused about certain teachings that didn't quite resonate with you, or felt pressured to become some kind of superhuman then I am here to give you permission to be, do and feel whatever is right for you!

**Some of this will be triggering for some. Also, I know that most teachers in the twin flame community have always meant well and we've all made mistakes in our teachings because we are all human and all on this path of learning together. None of this is directed at any particular teacher out there, I'm just saying it in general terms. Some parts may make me sound bitter, but really I'm aiming for passionate! :-) Also, when I say "you", know that I am also talking to my old self in those moments so I'm not judging anyone (or trying not to :-P). **

So let's begin with the unconditional love thing. We constantly hear about this in the twin flame community - "You must love your twin flame unconditionally." Sounds all well and good right? But the trouble is, this is not explained in any depth and often the people teaching about this don't seem to understand the concept either. Basically when we are told to love our twin unconditionally, there's often a hidden pressure to basically become a self-sacrificing martyr. This can be in the form of never getting angry or frustrated with your twin (I'm not saying to project it at them), putting up with poor behaviour (often over and over and wondering why they don't change), to never have any expectations regarding your twin or your connection, to always forgive, forgive, forgive (which is good, but is often misinterpreted to mean "turn a blind eye"), to be (overly) patient. It basically gives us an overall impression that we must have unrealistic expectations upon ourselves and have no healthy boundaries. But then often you will hear in the next breath that you need to have healthy boundaries (which is good!), but the "love unconditionally" placed next to the "create healthy boundaries" message is contradictory and confusing at best when not fully understood or explained. 

First off, it's completely fine to get angry or frustrated at times (just try not to projected it at your twin). Sometimes we need to get really pissed off in order to love ourselves more and put up a healthy boundary. Anger is often a sign that either someone isn't treating us right and we feel it's unfair, or it's showing us that we aren't loving ourselves enough and need to put up a healthy boundary or it comes up to show us that we have unrealistic expectations that we are placing on another which they cannot meet (looking to them to fill in our voids or validate us). Also, sometimes it's good to get a little impatient. It can be an indicator that we are stagnating and need to make some changes in our life or our approach to whatever is making us feel frustrated. 

But here's the vital point to consider when we are told that we must love our twin flame unconditionally. We need to heed this advice from a balanced perspective. Everything is about balance. No conditions at all is unhealthy, too many conditions (unrealistic conditions) is also unhealthy. It's completely natural and necessary to have healthy expectations, which ARE healthy conditions. These include healthy boundaries, which are also conditions. Our soul always loves our twin flame unconditionally (without conditions) in the higher realms, but on this Earth plane we need to have healthy conditions in place if we have any kind of 3D connection with our twin. These include the healthy conditions that basically state you will only decide to be present in your twin flame's 3D life if they treat you well and with love and respect. Many of us have learnt the hard way that when we haven't had healthy conditions in place (healthy boundaries) that we are either left being taken for granted or mistreated (or both) by twin or otherwise. This lunacy of "unconditional love" in terms of pressuring especially the divine feminine's to be some kind of doormat ("saint") is far from self-loving. Until everyone one on Earth is fully enlightened, we must have healthy conditions or boundaries in place. 

But the pressure to be this self-sacrificing saint is immense within the community. If you display any kind of frustration, impatience,  anger towards twin, feelings of giving up etc then someone usually pipes up and says, "You sound very much in ego!" This is often a condescending insult projected onto you by someone who wants to feel superior because they believe themselves to be some enlightened angel who's above you. This isn't always the case and sometimes it really is someone trying to help the other person to see that perhaps they aren't seeing things from the bigger perspective, but often it is about some illusion of a "enlightenment hierarchy" and the person is trying to imply the other is on the bottom rung (whilst they are on the top!)

But again, it's about balance, and I will even say that ego isn't all bad. Our pride may be hurt as our ego takes a blow. But this INITIAL reaction can sometimes actually be an indicator that we aren't loving ourselves. It points to something much deeper. The ego can be triggered and then with introspection we could potentially realise it was triggered because we were seeking outside approval. It can highlight the areas which aren't healed within us on a deeper level. 

But there is so much stigma attached to placing any kind of conditions within our twin flame connection. It's as if we are being told that in order to be worthy or ready for twin flame union we have to disregard our own healthy and necessary needs for respect, kindness and consideration from our twin. Of course it's never said in this way, but the underlying message is just that. This is all separation illusion in disguise (the illusion of hierarchy with God at the top and us "mere humans" at the bottom). This is a form of seeking approval from an external source. "I am a sinner and must sacrifice myself to be worthy". 

How many times have you swept some kind of less than adequate behaviour from your twin flame under the carpet because you felt it's what you were "supposed" to do according to what you'd learned in the twin flame community? How many of you have felt so pressured to be some kind of saint, Mother Teresa figure to your twin, babying him (or her) and being overly giving, nurturing, loving, no matter what? And how many times when you did that did you also have to try and push down the sinking feeling of your soul crying out to you that something wasn't right in doing that and that you needed to love yourself more? Your intuition knew that something was amiss, but the community had taught you to do things that felt "off" to you deep down.

For many of you, a tower moment had to occur in order to wake you up to what you'd always known deep down, that you need to love yourself and place those healthy boundaries within your connection. Many of you had to get so pissed off (with yourself too) and with the Pollyanna attitude in many corners of the twin flame community and say "Hell no!" to the point where you didn't give a fuck whether you were "in ego" or not. All you knew at that time, is that you deserved better. So you may well have had a period where you were like "Screw the tf community!" But then with returned clarity, once the dust settled, you see it's NOT being in ego to place healthy boundaries, it's certain teachings that are false.

You may have felt like giving up on this whole twin flame thing for a while and been faced with confusion about doing that because certain people would have been saying that giving up is because you're in ego, or lack patience, or some other derogatory projection designed to guilt trip you into remaining the humble pushover. It's like some people see it as a competition. Their underlying message is: "If you're not the innocent and beautiful little girl stereotype that we're all pressured to conform to by society then you're nothing!" We're taught that basically, all these things - anger, frustration, self-empowerment, being seen AND heard is not desirable for a feminine. And the people subconsciously spouting this crap in the community to feel superior are the ones still caught up in it. It ALL comes down to the unrealistic and disempowering stereotypes that we are pressured to be in society. We've been playing this out in our twin flame connection almost like a caricature.

Many of us have felt duped! Especially as the whole time we knew better deep down. We knew it didn't feel right. We may have acted completely differently with our twin in terms of these pressures, than what we do with anyone else! i.e. we wouldn't have put up with certain things with anyone else, but because we are told that this connection is different (which it is), we are taught that it doesn't apply to the old paradigm relationships (which it doesn't), but that doesn't mean we need to totally throw everything out of the window, including needing to respect ourselves and be respected by our twin. That part of the "old paradigm" type relationship still remains - the need to have healthy expectations of being treated well!

In saying all of this I'm not suggesting that we go in the total opposite direction and become some absolutely unrealistic diva, because it's all about being THE REAL YOU. I think many of you have secretly worried that your twin flame would not be able to handle the real you, so you "softened" yourself BIG TIME to make them feel comfortable, to make them feel powerful by you making yourself almost powerless. But it backfired! You were wearing a mask and it has always been OBVIOUS to your twin. You weren't being your true self and subconsciously this was telling them that they also had no permission to be their true self. Through disempowering yourself you dulled your magnetic attraction significantly. You weren't loving yourself, you clothed your true love and beauty of who you are in murky illusions, you conformed to how society wanted to repress you (all subconsciously of course).

You thought your power would scare your twin away because it goes against society's pressures to keep you disempowered. On a deep DNA level, over many lifetimes, we've known that that men were threatened by female empowerment and so it's been an undercurrent expectation for us to suppress that within ourselves. BUT this is a soul connection and it's all about union, with self, with one another. So it's about being truth - you want your twin to live in his truth? Well he wants and needs you to do the same. You want him to be empowered and confident in who he is, then you need to do the same. Then your magnetism lights up tremendously. 

When you empower yourself, place healthy boundaries, refuse to compromise your dignity, as your mirror, you will notice the divine masculine empowering himself too, placing healthy boundaries in his life, being his true self. You are one. However, when you disempower yourself, you disempower your twin and the dynamic between you. If you don't believe in him, he won't believe in himself either, and if you don't believe you are beautiful in your power which goes against conformity, then you will stay stuck in the fear, the masks, the karmic cycles. Set yourself free! Your test is to be brave enough to let go, surrender, be the real you (more about this here), empower yourself and release the fear of loss of your twin. Because as long as you remain fearing losing them, you will always remain segregated from your own true self, because you will feel the urge to continue to conform, to seek approval, to be the overly doting martyr that keeps you stuck in illusion. 

Many twin's fear losing their DM or DF so much that they believe that putting up healthy boundaries will push them away. So on a subconscious level it's very convenient to convince ourselves that we don't need to erect those boundaries "because I am being all spiritual and saintly instead by allowing everything (good and bad)". This bs side of "unconditional love" seems very appealing in those moments. It allows us to keep our head buried in the sand, just waiting for our twin to change rather than face our biggest fear of loss through empowering ourselves and being true to who we are.  

The whole point of this journey is to rediscover the real you, the you that is always lovable just because you exist, the real you that is outside the illusion of separation, of hierarchy, of trying to conform to social pressures, of needing anyone or anything outside of yourself to prove you are worthy. So this means we need to stop approval seeking in the twin flame community too. Know that we are all human, we are all on this path of discovery, so no-one has all the answers. Don't blindly believe everyone else knows best simply because it's a popular fad teaching that's "in" right now. Because these teaching can spread like wild fire in the community, whether they are accurate or not. So practice discernment, what feels right for you. Think about it, is your twin trying to conform to social groups in his own life? Are they also giving him well meaning advice that is bs? Is this a mirror? Is he now kicking himself too because deep down he always knew better? I think so. 

As a speaker in the community, I can tell you that the pressure to be some kind of saint-like figure has been immense! I was always worried of the "You're stuck in ego" comment so I tried to be perfect. I tried to be perfect for my twin too but I wasn't being the real me, I wasn't accepting myself in my true, vulnerable yet powerful human state. I wasn't loving myself and so I was seeking it from him. Union would never have happened in that energy state. (I'm not implying it was all down to me btw). 

So to sum this up, It's damaging to imply that all conditions are bad or based in ego. What we need to be told is that unhealthy expectations and unrealistic conditions are not good for us or our connection. These things include looking to the other to fill in our voids, expecting the other to be perfect, expecting the other to rescue us etc and then getting mad when they literally cannot do that. On the other hand, healthy conditions and boundaries are necessary, i.e. expecting to be treated with kindness and respect. 

When we act like the self-sacrificing martyr with no healthy boundaries it gives our twin the clear message than we don't love and honour ourselves. I know it's a sad realisation, but even our twin flames aren't perfect and they fall into the energetic dynamic like everyone else does, meaning, if you don't love yourself, you are teaching them to disrespect you too. Many of us have subconsciously been looking for our twin to be our saviour. We've been hurt many times before with other people when we were too clingy, too much of a doormat, too much of the nice girl with no backbone, basically when we were conforming to who we felt pressured to be growing up. So with our twin we (subconsciously) played the role of who we thought we were meant to be so we could create this testing ground, to test our twin. Would he be the one to finally love, respect and approve of me now I've "mastered" being the "perfect person", the martyr (the mask!)? We became everything we thought our parents would be proud of, or society, or God, or men, or our twin etc. And they STILL reject us! "After all the work I've put in!!" (to be someone I'm not!)

They aren't rejecting you. If they are your true twin, they are "rejecting" the FALSE you. To force you to get pissed and throw caution to the wind and say "fuck it!" And basically give up on the exhausting process of wearing that mask. It's not even a rejection in truth, it an energetic repulsion. They cannot get near you even if they really badly want to because you're living in an illusion. 

We wanted to believe in a fantasy knight in shining armour, the one that could "heal" us by giving our wounded inner child all the love and approval she felt she never received from anyone else. What a blow to the ego when we realised that our twin wasn't ever meant to be that, that they (and we) are more human and imperfect and like everyone else than what we wanted to believe. The convenience of having someone else giving this (false sense of) healing and wholeness to us was revealed to be an illusion. We must do the work within, there's no way around it! But when that illusion shatters, it sets you free from feeling powerless, or believing you're meant to play some powerless doormat to be good enough. This is how we are breaking those old paradigms. 

As divine feminine's a whole host of expectations (from far beyond this community) have been placed on us to be the receptive feminine. Receptivity is a great thing, but it's been warped through society and many lifetimes to where we believe we need to be receptive to everything, including the bad.

Another thing I have noticed is that many people rely too much on all these YouTube tarot readings. Yes, sometimes they can really be helpful and resonate, but some people are obsessed with them and hold onto the DM's 5D messages or his 5D self as an excuse to put up with the poor 3D reality of him. "He treated me like shit but I know he loves me in 5D so I can excuse him!" No! I'm not trying to imply we must become hard, unfeeling, resistant to our DM (unless really necessary), but I am saying to only accept what feels right to you in your soul, what feels respectful and loving from your twin flame. 

When we stagnate in this fear and continue to baby, micromanage, allow disrespect etc then not only are we holding ourselves back, we are holding our twin flame back too! When one becomes their true self, it unlocks the door for the other to become their true self. If you would like to read more about this then check out my other article all about how trying to do it all and hold it all together actually keeps you both stuck. 

We must be brave and face our biggest fear that we will be rejected if we are our true selves and step into our truth of divine feminine empowerment. This is why we are here after all, to break free from the old limiting illusions that hold us back from self-union. When we face our fears, place healthy boundaries, stop looking to the other for approval and start loving ourselves, we force our twin flame out of their comfort zone because we've created a void. No longer are we resonating with "settling" for a dysfunctional dynamic with our twin. We know it's not serving anyone. We're being true to ourselves and if our twin wants to truly have self union and union with their feminine, they will be propelled to live authentically too. They will have to come out of their comfort zone like we have. We are reflections after all and many are already witnessing this in their twin flame since applying the healthy boundaries. 

If you would like detailed assistance on how to create these healthy boundaries that break through stagnation and propel you into inner union (and outer union if it's on the cards for you) then I have created an in depth video lesson which is 34 minutes in length and just $11.11 USD. Many clients have reported back to me how transformational the information and guidance within the video has been for them. The details are below. 

I wish you the deepest love, light and awakening on your continued journey!

Love Karen x